i understand how you feel but what is telling her all this going to accomplish exactly? You feel hurt and betrayed, i get that and these are legitimate feelings. but think about why you wanted to send her that email? I might be wrong but from my perspective (and other people in this thread from the outside looking in felt the same way) seems to me like you want to instill shame and guilt so that she can hurt just like you hurt. you're setting yourself up to hurt even more when you end up sending her that shyt and she doesn't even give a fukk.its just that i really feel fukked over. im tired of always biting my tongue, especially to white folks. im sure she would not like a situation like this and would protest. especially since im not living here anymore, why not tell her how i really feel?
i understand how you feel but what is telling her all this going to accomplish exactly? You feel hurt and betrayed, i get that and these are legitimate feelings. but think about why you wanted to send her that email? I might be wrong but from my perspective (and other people in this thread from the outside looking in felt the same way) seems to me like you want to instill shame and guilt so that she can hurt just like you hurt. you're setting yourself up to hurt even more when you end up sending her that shyt and she doesn't even give a fukk.
that energy you're putting into trying to make her feel a certain way needs to be re channeled into solving your current issue. Why make an enemy of her? Handle that shyt with grace and you will attract positive people/energy. Maybe she can connect you with someone else who can help you.
In life, no one owes you anything. This was an expensive lesson but never put yourself in a position where you depend too much on someone. If you dwell on the percieved betrayal, you'll sink lower and lower. If you re-focus on finding a new place to stay/living-arrangement you'll be all right because your eyes and ears will be open for opportunity. the choice is yours.
thank yall for the advice. i have decided not to send the email. like you said, it wont prove anything, and i dont have time to be caught up on that. i have to plan for tomorrow. people do things to see if it will trigger a reaction, but i have to be proactive, not reactive. thank yall for helping me to see this.
yeah she misled you then
but fukk it man
do you have any $ to live off on for saturday?
can you apply for a cost of living loan?
ask her advice about possible solutions
her guilt may make her think of a way
Advice #1- You can't depend on other people for shyt, NOBODY.
Advice #2- Do not try that guilt trip, it won't work. It will foster more ill will. Just by you being in her home, no matter how well her intentions previously, bothers the shyt out of her. It's not that you necessarily did anything wrong, but she resents you for even breathing at this point because she is sharing her home with you. That's human nature.
Advice #3- Don't ever give up on your dreams. You may have to suspend them temporarily, but don't give up.
Advice #4- NOBODY gives a fukk about the black man's struggle, especially white people. Use that indignation you feel internally, to fuel your drive to succeed. The only one that gives a fukk, really, about the black man's struggle, is the black man that is going through that struggle. Everything else coming from someone else, is nothing but lip service. Other black brothas and sistas may be able to sympathize, and even feel outrage vicariously, but they won't do anything about it but stroke your ego a little maybe.
It would have been nice if he knew how to write, a college student. Dude needs to seriously take a writing course on the beginner level.Somebody sum this up for me please.
first off im in grad school. second off, the first writing was more of a stream of consciousness. im sorry i didnt put it in APA format for all of the coli english professors. obviously some people got what i was saying, so if you didnt, fukk off.It would have been nice if he knew how to write, a college student. Dude needs to seriously take a writing course on the beginner level.
I ended up finding a better place, closer to campus. I decided not to send that email, and to just deal with the person until situations change, but i have to be careful who i put trust in. a lot of people talk trustworthy talk, but they know nothing of the practice of it. ive had to let go some anger, but at the same time, being smart and returning kindness for evil shows independence. independent of how fukked up you do me, you cant stop me from my goals, and cant stop my happiness.Hello @freddykruegeronapill what did you end up doing? Just wanted to see how you are doing.