I went to church alot growing up. Believed in god,but not really. Would have experiences that would make me say "God mustve got me outta that" on occasion. Then I stopped believing all together. Decided it doesnt matter,God may or may not exist,who cares. Didnt take a stand and become athiest or anything,I was just indifferent and unnaffected.
I was focused on the real world and Babylon. Was seeing positive change,had a good woman I didnt appreciate. Suddenly the trajectory went down,I lost everything,relationship was on the rocks. I remember laying in the bed in despair. In this moment I decided to acknowledge God for the first time in years,just to blame him. Cursing god out,in tears,very hostile about the idea of having to start over after the fire.
Closed my eyes,and I promise you I was not asleep. But I suddenly saw a growing light within the darkness. That eventually grew to be blindingly bright. And the feeling that came over me? I really cant describe it other than to say it was a feeling of "peace",assurance. But it was a tangible feeling,like seriously better than any orgasm. Ive done drugs,had sex,never had this feeling before or after. I didnt just feel peace because I saw the light and thought about God either. There literally was a feeling. Not me creating a feeling from a thought. I really can not describe it,its something youd have to experience.
I literally have not felt like "myself" since that day,but Im okay with that#Possessed #VesselLife
I was focused on the real world and Babylon. Was seeing positive change,had a good woman I didnt appreciate. Suddenly the trajectory went down,I lost everything,relationship was on the rocks. I remember laying in the bed in despair. In this moment I decided to acknowledge God for the first time in years,just to blame him. Cursing god out,in tears,very hostile about the idea of having to start over after the fire.
Closed my eyes,and I promise you I was not asleep. But I suddenly saw a growing light within the darkness. That eventually grew to be blindingly bright. And the feeling that came over me? I really cant describe it other than to say it was a feeling of "peace",assurance. But it was a tangible feeling,like seriously better than any orgasm. Ive done drugs,had sex,never had this feeling before or after. I didnt just feel peace because I saw the light and thought about God either. There literally was a feeling. Not me creating a feeling from a thought. I really can not describe it,its something youd have to experience.
I literally have not felt like "myself" since that day,but Im okay with that#Possessed #VesselLife