I went to church alot growing up. Believed in god,but not really. Would have experiences that would make me say "God mustve got me outta that
" on occasion. Then I stopped believing all together. Decided it doesnt matter,God may or may not exist,who cares. Didnt take a stand and become athiest or anything,I was just indifferent and unnaffected.
I was focused on the real world and Babylon. Was seeing positive change,had a good woman I didnt appreciate. Suddenly the trajectory went down,I lost everything,relationship was on the rocks. I remember laying in the bed in despair. In this moment I decided to acknowledge God for the first time in years,just to blame him
. Cursing god out,in tears,very hostile about the idea of having to start over after the fire.
Closed my eyes,and I promise you I was not asleep. But I suddenly saw a growing light within the darkness. That eventually grew to be blindingly bright. And the feeling that came over me? I really cant describe it other than to say it was a feeling of "peace",assurance. But it was a tangible feeling,like seriously better than any orgasm. Ive done drugs,had sex,never had this feeling before or after. I didnt just feel peace because I saw the light and thought about God either. There literally was a feeling. Not me creating a feeling from a thought. I really can not describe it,its something youd have to experience.
I literally have not felt like "myself" since that day,but Im okay with that
#Possessed #VesselLife

I was focused on the real world and Babylon. Was seeing positive change,had a good woman I didnt appreciate. Suddenly the trajectory went down,I lost everything,relationship was on the rocks. I remember laying in the bed in despair. In this moment I decided to acknowledge God for the first time in years,just to blame him

Closed my eyes,and I promise you I was not asleep. But I suddenly saw a growing light within the darkness. That eventually grew to be blindingly bright. And the feeling that came over me? I really cant describe it other than to say it was a feeling of "peace",assurance. But it was a tangible feeling,like seriously better than any orgasm. Ive done drugs,had sex,never had this feeling before or after. I didnt just feel peace because I saw the light and thought about God either. There literally was a feeling. Not me creating a feeling from a thought. I really can not describe it,its something youd have to experience.
I literally have not felt like "myself" since that day,but Im okay with that
