Projecting your insecurities unto others

You are like textbook insecure (probably clinically depressive) douche bag that has alienated everyone in your life because as a defense mechanism because of your deep fear of rejection, you like to trick yourself into thinking you are alone because everyone around you is a bag guy instead of facing the reality that you are a disgusting whale that expels a disgusting putrid smell that no sane person can be around.
Next time that little voice get in your head, try to gather the strength to got to the kitchen and for the first time instead of processed food, graba a knife and cut through the layers of fat until you reach the veins in your forearm, go out with some dignity at least.