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I Am A God
Let me say something as someone who lost a child.. Not as old, not for the same reasons..
You grieve how you want.. You watch that video and he's half dead... Until motherfukking Spade starts rapping.. Then it's huge smiles.. Till nikkas STOP rapping.. Then he fades... Tells some jokes.. Ol Girl shows up, he's ecstatic..
He's still a musician at heart.. Don't matter what the song is saying.. You want to hear some music.. You want to hear some bars.. You want to see another person who loves music, and his passion, and his thoughts, cause you ain't got it in you right now.
I get it.. Gun bars.. Killing bars.. But you don't grow up and hear and love and become rich from that music and then boom, never want to hear that again.. That's why they first said they ain't got those kind of bars... Then they checked with him... About anything? He's like yea and everybody else was on it.. They was just scared to.. But I would have gone all the way in.. Found some shyt about somebody dying and it fukking me up.. And spit it to that nikka with all my feels
Cause that's exactly what you want in those moments.. Your people who love you, who know you, around you, smiling, laughing, having a good time, in the midst of tradegy.. To give you some routine from the crying you do all day alone or with your girl.. Or you been doing all week. To give you a fukking break.. Not to keep bringing the shyt up and definitely not change who you are all and start changing up how you talk or subject matter or I ask you to spit that shyt I love, and you give me motivational bars when I'm just trying to fukking chill and have an hour of 5 without thinking about the shyt
This is good perspective. Thanks for sharing and I'm sorry you lost a child. Prayers up for you good brother.