Deep down I think I hate my mom, anyone else feel this way?

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MGM said:
Naw I feel you ..

I used to be a momma boy, and then around 8 years old my mom had her boyfriend (from South Carolina and 20 years older then her his was over 50 when they met) come live in our house, and then went off and married him in a court house without saying one word about to anybody... I found out like a year after him living there that they were married..

Since the day he moved in, and for the rest of my life she choose this nikka over me (I could tell you example after example).. And on top of that this dude was madd abusive to me..

And the kicker for me was when I was about 16 she shipped me 1000 miles always off to military boarding school in South Carolina, and never called me once or sent a care package (u have no idea how much abuse I sustained in this place, but it seriously changed me forever)

I don't know if I could ever her for that shyt.. In fact I honestly think about driving back home and murdering both there asses to this because of it. In all honestly jail time would be worth it..

And Im not crazy, because I understand nobody should talk about killing their mother... But if you only knew the things I knew, you'd understand.
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It's a cold world out here brother.

All you can really do is try and look at the shyt almost like a video game...


You still alive, so you got 1 ups.. it aint over.


We all gon die some day.... Steve Jobs one of most revered men in history died of cancer....


All you can do is be fearless, know everybody has a past, and fight through that shyt until you get to wear you really wanna be.


I know.... I know.... Easier said than done. I experience this myself on a daily basis. I wanna get up so bad, but it's like a force just standing above me wacking me in the head like wack a mole trynna make me stay down...


This is basically LIFE.... Everybody goes through it, some worse than others, but the damage is always relative to the person, for the most part.


Try and wipe that shyt clean and go full force towards whatever will make you happy. Therapy can help.
 
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I told a chic once when I was younger: "I love my mom more than god" ....


She said: "don't say that! You never put anyone above god..."


I said: "I can't help it, I just do"


10 years later, her words have been prophesised.


It's a cold mothafukkin world out here:francis:
 
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The Illest said:
That shyt hurts cuh, when you find out yo mom deprived you of a father and if she was a ho too :wow:
I can see how somedudes end up hating women
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nikkas will treat the females that they deal with just like their pops treated there mother :wow:
 
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Rawtid said:
Get over yourself. People go through things and parents are no different. The "I don't want to hear it you SHOULD have" approach is lame. Understanding improves relationships. It's not about being right. It's about understanding. NO ONE should have ill will towards their mom.
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We agree.

Can't have ill will toward someone when you've made the decision to not allow them to effect your life in any way.

"Hey guy, I know your mom is a stone-cold drug fiend, but you shouldn't have ill will toward her dogg. Just have a conversation, get her side of the story." :comeon:
"Hey girl, your mom's boyfriend molested you for a couple years. Well listen, she did the best she could, hear her out, no ill will." :rudy:
 
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I'll never forget when I was 13 and my dad didn't say shyt when his white wife said I was ghetto. I've been called the n word by cacs a few times but nothing ever stung like that. The nikka just avoided eye contact and kept it moving.

And I'm not ghetto at all, I'm 3 years into my computer science bs. If she called me a ****** like she wanted my dad still probably wouldn't have done shyt.

At the end of the day the only thing that matters is money. That's how you get the freedom to live the life you want. Take that pain and turn it into a fire in your belly.

The reason I'm not worried about competition from "peers@ is I know they haven't felt the pain I've felt. Once you've been legit concerned about your next meal your whole life perspective changes. Unfortunately most people who go through that can't make it far enough to turn the pain into gain. And thats the poverty cycle for you:
 
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Kid McNamara said:
We agree.

Can't have ill will toward someone when you've made the decision to not allow them to effect your life in any way.

"Hey guy, I know your mom is a stone-cold drug fiend, but you shouldn't have ill will toward her dogg. Just have a conversation, get her side of the story." :comeon:
"Hey girl, your mom's boyfriend molested you for a couple years. Well listen, she did the best she could, hear her out, no ill will." :rudy:
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It's crazy. I want to move back to ATL BAD, for many reasons, especially business.


#1 reason I don't want to move back is because I still have family there.


That's some crazy shyt.


Like, I don't wanna be in the same city as these nikkas. Wish I could delete em from my fukkin hard drive.


But yea you right it comes a point where you just gotta distance yourself because there'll never be an understanding no matter what.
 
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