He is petrified of how he will look to the “boys”, but also cares too much about getting buried in the dirt sheets. He is gonna eventually come to the conclusion that he looks like exactly what he is, a rich mark that will never be “in” with the people he wants to be in with. Nobody has any respect for him in that locker room, or any locker room, he tried to be friends with the wrestlers too much, tries to cater to the insiders too much, tries to get ahead of the next big thing too much. At the end of the day, he should have bought a company, paid some hard nose vets retirement money in the back to make sure everybody fell in line, and just enjoyed the show like the mark he is, while getting some brains from ring rats, or some jobbers, whatever way he swings, it doesn’t matter, he will never be one of the “boys”.