Look, it's just bad optics man. Optics are optics.
once again, assuming you are also black(not sure if thats the case). but lets play along.
The optics are set by white racism and white supremacy.
the same way women in general complain about men saying "why is she so bit.y?" when a woman has to raise her voice to get something done. Vs when a man does the exact same thing, men call it being tough and handling business.
this is true for black people in regards to white people. when a black person says Hold on, I aint going to lie down and take that. white people say you're being loud (dame dash), and rash/you're a terrorist(out of byron's own mouth.)
The optics were set by white people onto black people. are you willing to accept what they define as good optics? which is dont ever fight for black rights? dont ever fight for your own rights as a black person? you cool with that?