some real shyt man.Well what I was alluding to there is his saying that none of this matters. He'll tell me shyt like that, it sounds extremely negative but its really suppose to mean to never take shyt too seriously cuz we all struggle to live in this life just to die anyway. Enjoy the ride, don't bring misery to yourself for something you won't take with you when you go. Depression can make you loathe over the strangest things so learning to not take things so serious is a really good way to cope and bring that shyt under control. The fukked up times are when you gotta find your smile, Pac had it right.
ahh man having to deal with my homies giving me shyt was definitely a bummer when we'd kick it and smoke. "Flea think he better than us going to school with all them crackas yall "That's real shyt. They quick to drug you and put you in the mix with a bunch of wild mafukkas that really have problems. Kids go at different speeds, the way they deal with it in public school let me know they don't give a fukk. Looking back it wasn't nothing they couldn't of handled without me going to that place. Sometimes I think me going there made shyt worse cuz I had to deal with my parents lowkey shame that I went out like that. My nikkaz gave me shyt for a quick second cuz that cheese bus was scoopin me up right where I used to catch the bus with everyone else.
But that shyt crazy, even tho you meet some good people and get a way better education you still feel like you got sent up the river(school wise) just for acting a little bad like kids tend to do anyway. I'm glad I ain't take them drugs and get zombied out, lowkey I think that pillhead shyt started off these pharmaceuticals pushing drugs on us when we were younger. I'm glad I tossed them drugs in the bushes, you don't need that shyt unless you truly fukked up.
From the honesty you gave in another thread about that sharing milkshakes.. (you know what i'm talking about ) I knew you were gunna be a cool poster but...
So when I don't shave my beard, would I look like Willow Smith with a beard?You look like willow Smith breh. I dig it.
The only time I've teared up online. Stay grinding man, and thank you for the read. We forget that we are only human at times.
Stay strong brehBattlig it right now.
I just have a lot of trust issues. Its fine one day and then i have suicidal thoughts the next. Thats what messes me up.
Im going to figure it out and many documentaries will be made about me.