I'm gonna keep it all the way real - I am depressed as fukk.
I had a job (washing dishes), worked it, hated it, so I quit. But the one thing I liked about it is that I was always busy so I really never had time to think about shyt. So I quit the job, because in my mind I figured that it would give me mad time to do a bunch of shyt... but three weeks later I find myself constantly bored, trying to find shyt to do to fill up my day. And now I want a fukking job and can't seem to get hired.
Then I get lonely and shyt because I spend most of the day by myself. So I go out to bars or whatever, but then I get even more depressed when I am there because I don't really actually LIKE people. Or if I have a good night at the bar, I am mad at myself the next morning for spending too much money (that I really can't afford to spend). And despite the fact that I really don't get anything out of going to the bar, and I always end up saddened by it either during my time there or the next morning, I still go EVERY fukking night. And I don't know why.
Add to the fact that while I KNOW a lot of people around my area, I don't actually have any close friends, or people that I could call up to talk to or just hang out with. I just happen to be cool with all of the regulars at the bars, gyms, etc., that I frequent.
Hell, even when I have sex (which is not nearly often enough), after I nut I'm right back to the sadness.
I need to maybe see a therapist but I really can't find one; plus, I don't want to spend money on some shyt that MIGHT work but might not work.
Damn, just had to vent, y'all.![]()
Im here for you breh
we can talk...pm me or facebook me
shyt is real
i lived in an area after college alone and the loneliness drove me crazy
network with coworkers breh
om me and we can chat though