Single mother household, No Role Modelz
You never turned on a TV or read a book?
In the internet age, this is not an excuse.
YouTube has tons of mentors. Starting with Elliot Hulse, RSD Tyler, Tai Lopez and others.
You really have no excuse for not being the man in your mother's life.
Go inside yourself, address the pain. Ask why does it hurt and how You can make it better. You are here now, it doesn't matter where you came from or what happened before you. Your an able bodied young man, act like it.