Still what? Lets cheer up and be friends. I mean if my thoughts on the internet are making you want to take out my eyes im sorry friend and i hate to be blunt with you but that is not normal. That is a problem. Im going to take out some time to read some passages from the Bible to you that i hope resonate with the good that exists somewhere inside of you because at the moment i feel that demonic spirits are captivating you and empowering you with their satanic energy. Lets not make the devil happy but instead, honor God.
Proverbs 25:28 (explains how demonic spirits can enter your mind)
A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls.
James 1:19
Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;
Ephesians 4:26
Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger,
Ecclesiastes 7:9
Be not quick in your spirit to become angry, for anger lodges in the bosom of fools.
2 Timothy 2:24
And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil,
Proverbs 16:32
Whoever is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city.
Romans 8:28
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Thank you for your time, friend.