Essential The Mental Health Thread

[hostsamurai]

I started taking clonazepam recently to deal with anxiety, it's helped a lot but I hate how tired it makes me. I only take it when I need it but once I do I'm down for the count the rest of the day.

You should take 6 months to 'find yourself'.

 

[Rozay Oro]

I hate holidays, I always feel so lonely. Even if surrounded by fam.

 

[Brehcepticon]

I hate holidays, I always feel so lonely. Even if surrounded by fam.

I've always treated holidays like any other day My birthday is when I get bummed out tho.

 

[Tunez]

I've always treated holidays like any other day My birthday is when I get bummed out tho.

Birthdays are trash

 

[Rozay Oro]

I've always treated holidays like any other day My birthday is when I get bummed out tho.

I get bummed on that day too lol

 

[Monsanto]

Birthdays are trash

I get bummed on that day too lol

Agreed. The whole year saves up bad fortune and pays me dividends on my birthday. Two more months

 

[SmoothOperator88]

As someone who has a seriously hard time expressing his feelings. This post helps. Thanks.

 

[SmoothOperator88]

I’m only living for the temporary happy moments. I feel like it’s too exhausting to try to alter and invest into my future when shyt never changes anyway. Relapsing on negativity and emotion is always inevitable

I feel the same. Living for the temporary reprieves and even then the awareness that the reprieve is only temporary kills it. Feel like I'm sabotaging and squandering my own life and talents. No passion for anything, no plan, things that i enjoy" feel like a chore an bring no relief. I'm really concerned because it's been a pattern for a couple months. Everything has fallen off, even my own self care, havent been going to the gym, havent been eating, havent left my room in 2 days. I wnt to be moving forward and out there in the world and feeling good and doing stuff. I just cant right now

 

[SirReginald]

honestly, i just started talking to my therapist about it.. like last week lol haven’t really worked on it yet. it also sucks because my over thinking and lack of a social life, i have a really bad habit of rambling in social places in terms of conversations i can contribute to with my opinions and knowledge on said topic. i don’t hang around people much, so when i do i over talk, i talk tooooo much. and my anxiety contributes to it, as well. like i’ll get really anxious and just talk and talk as a way to cope with it, instead of shutting down, i don’t shut up lol im actually super self conscious about it

in terms of the second bolded and your question:

so like for example, i’ll be talking about some issues i have in terms of relationships with men, my struggles in terms of being able to accept affection or put it out there.. a lot of times, talking about things i struggle with, it leads back to my child hood and i reflect on the cause and affect of my issues. and just being able to put context behind the areas in which i like and connect a lot of where i picked up these behaviors.

not just in that way, though. but in a way, i reflect on my bipolar, as well. last week my therapist and i were talking about my mania. lately i’ve really wanted to just stop getting help because i’ve been feeling manic. then i started talking on how i love mania, it’s like a drug to me. it makes me productive, but i never have a healthy balance in terms of these feelings.. everything is always always followed up by self destruction.. like if i’m being super productive.. it ends in being self destructive. we weren’t even necessarily discussing bipolar, i was just rambling about the hardship to really live a productive life. towards the end of the conversation she was like, it doesn’t seem like you know you were doing this, but clinically you just described exactly what bipolar is. at the time, i wasn’t even trying to, i was just rambling. and it was just funny, well.. not really, that i’ve been living with and struggling so long with bipolar that these things have become so normal for me, i can talk about them freely in a way that’s not just in clinical to describe it, but just in a really general way.

I suffer from the rambling part at times. I'm currently trying to find a therapist because I have personal shyt I need to get off my chest. I'll admit that it's hard, but we have to all try. I do feel that I either have bipolar or borderline personality disorder.

 

[CinnaSlim]

 

[Bless't]

In the process of finding someone to talk to and potentially put me on some antidepressants.

Nothing gives me any type of joy anymore.

Nothing.

 

[SirReginald]

I really feel miserable like in a rage. It's hard it really is.

 

[THA ILLEST's baby moms]

I've been feeling depressed and been struggling with my weight since I've had my son in 2016. I've been to the gym for a couple months straight then I stop going because I'm not seeing the results I want. I know I sound vain as fukk but I just cant stand to look in the mirror and I don't see the person that I want to see. I've always been good at reaching my goals in life but damn this is the hardest. Been yo-yo dieting my weight has been going up and down. Got a breast reduction last November and lost like 20lbs instantly so I was pretty happy about that and was feeling better and making progress, now the summer is almost over and I know I am gaining the weight back again cause my breasts have been feeling itchy (they itch when they grow) and so I just panic because I don't want them to grow back to the size that they used to be. Now I just take ADHD meds (stimulants) cause it helps me ignore those negative thoughts for the time being and I just clean up the entire house and do other errands instead. I guess I cant just come to terms that I am slowing turning . I just cant. I'm not even 30 yet.

 

[CinnaSlim]

I've been feeling depressed and been struggling with my weight since I've had my son in 2016. I've been to the gym for a couple months straight then I stop going because I'm not seeing the results I want. I know I sound vain as fukk but I just cant stand to look in the mirror and I don't see the person that I want to see. I've always been good at reaching my goals in life but damn this is the hardest. Been yo-yo dieting my weight has been going up and down. Got a breast reduction last November and lost like 20lbs instantly so I was pretty happy about that and was feeling better and making progress, now the summer is almost over and I know I am gaining the weight back again cause my breasts have been feeling itchy (they itch when they grow) and so I just panic because I don't want them to grow back to the size that they used to be. Now I just take ADHD meds (stimulants) cause it helps me ignore those negative thoughts for the time being and I just clean up the entire house and do other errands instead. I guess I cant just come to terms that I am slowing turning . I just cant. I'm not even 30 yet.

I feel you. I used to be so skinny and known for my flat stomach then one day in my 20s especially after moving down south, getting a car and a desk job it stopped being flat.

Now, I got cellulite around my midsection and since I have small breasts, my stomach looks even worst proportion wise. I got a gym membership, discovered dairy makes me bloated even tried going vegan but Im just not consistent.

Thats probably one of my worst traits inconsistency. My only advice is break your goals up into smaller baby steps, take it one day at a time and try not to get discouraged. Get back on the horse as soon as you can. To be human is to err, so dont beat your self up.

I stopped using the scale and use my tape measure or my clothing size, especially since I lift. (I need to do more cardio and better my diet) but anyway muscle is denser/heavier than fat so you can work out and actually gain lbs but look/feel better.

 

[Rozay Oro]

I haven't done shyt today besides eat and use the restroom. Haven't even showered, just in bed all day. I wish I was normal