Essential The Mental Health Thread

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you a female? only asking cause I know rapid cycling more common with females than males if I'm not mistaken. Just be careful because rapid cycling means a higher risk of suicide.

yeah, i am. and i know, there was a period a few years ago where it was really bad. like i was going through mania to depression like 15 times a day! i felt like my brain was in a confined space because shaken, like thrown at a wall. i was having a lot of suicidal idealization back then. i know studies show that untreated bipolar gets worse as you get older. and i was 14 when i was diagnosed and never experienced rapid cycling until my early 20s

side note: i wish there were more studies and focus on the physical and health issues that come from mental illness or how they become worse. studies prove that lack of sleep and stress contribute to alzheimer’s and dementia. insomnia is a trait of BP. people with mental illness are more likely to abuse drugs and smoke cigs than people with out. and i know personally speaking, a lot of times i ditch out of drs appts or don’t go as much as i should because of my depression and anxiety. also, my eating habits are shyt and a lot of times i won’t have an appetite for like a week and barely eat.

that’s one of the things that never seemed to be talked about is the affects on our actual health
 

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yeah, i am. and i know, there was a period a few years ago where it was really bad. like i was going through mania to depression like 15 times a day! i felt like my brain was in a confined space because shaken, like thrown at a wall. i was having a lot of suicidal idealization back then. i know studies show that untreated bipolar gets worse as you get older. and i was 14 when i was diagnosed and never experienced rapid cycling until my early 20s

side note: i wish there were more studies and focus on the physical and health issues that come from mental illness or how they become worse. studies prove that lack of sleep and stress contribute to alzheimer’s and dementia. insomnia is a trait of BP. people with mental illness are more likely to abuse drugs and smoke cigs than people with out. and i know personally speaking, a lot of times i ditch out of drs appts or don’t go as much as i should because of my depression and anxiety. also, my eating habits are shyt and a lot of times i won’t have an appetite for like a week and barely eat.

that’s one of the things that never seemed to be talked about is the affects on our actual health

as far as depression there has been a lot of research recently about depression/anxiety with gut bacteria. Joe Rogan had a pid with a psychiatrist who treated pts with lifestyle & diet changes. It was interesting.
 

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Feeling extra worthless and frustrated with myself and my own feelings right now. Isolation brings out the worst in me.

Been feeling like my life has no meaning and have been having suicidal ideation for weeks now...
 

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3rd week in a row of getting up early to walk/jog/jump rope and I really see improvement in my mood and overall outlook. I average about 3 miles a morning and aim for 6 days a week with a rest on Sunday. Eventually I’d like to create some sort of metrics so I can gauge improvement, but right now I’m just aiming for consistency. I don’t want to be the level of depressed I’ve been over the last few months. It’s a very dark place.
exercise is crucial. i get depressed as soon as I stop physical activity for more than a day.
 

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I know for sure I need counseling. I've been dealing with way to much shyt and I am bothering people that don't deserve it . My depression has taken me to a dark place and it's been hell trying to crawl out of it . I owe sooo many people an apology . Thank God I have health care now and I am gonna see a therapist .
 

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I'm going to spend a good amount of time on mediation, mantras and some prayers this summer to clear my mind and baggage that's been building up. I need to get a morning routine going and focus on clarity and goals too to stay off negativity and the past .
 
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this is hard. i hate even discussing my mental health with my family, because my mom has thrown it in my face at times. like there will be times, she’ll be in a bad mood and treating people like shyt because of it, i’ll call her out on it and then she brings up my bipolar and throw it in my face as a way to deflect from her attitude.

or if i’m feeling really low and i bring it up to her, like have thoughts of feelings worthless, like there’s no point in living etc she’ll say something about how i’m making her feel bad. and guilty and like get angry with me.

That's one of the many reasons I've sorta created this rather durable social shell of not being a person that comes to others with my problems, 'cause the last thing I need is to have someone look to bring any of that stuff up in a derogatory way which would only drive me to loathe 'em for long periods of time.

There was a point in my life where I was wondering why my friends/family think that they can just exclude me from shyt or do things that would make any normal person feel bad'n'shyt then I realized that alot of people think I'm some sort of cold b*stard the way I don't emote feelings of sadness or despondency like some would, so in a sense, I always seemed like I was either doing alright or didn't give a shyt, thus, I'm fine.

I'm either funny (clown) or angry (ogre), that's it; despite all the times I've shown compassion to others, been on my altruistic shyt and went hard in the paint to help folk who I consider to be really important to me, that part of my personality, although small...never really sticks with folk, the same folk that's supposed to know me...and it hurt for a bit but it also reinforced me keeping my problems to myself even more for fear of having it exploited similar to what your Mum does with you.

Hence why I talk/think/plot either myself to the point where it feels like I'm talking to a whole separate entity. I mean, I haven't hugged anyone I've known for upwards of a decade and change, so why would I be angry at the fact that ain't nobody trying to console me for shyt I'm obviously not displaying like other folk?

Eh.
 

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Talking to yourself is extremely natural, although if you openly do it you are telegraphing to random people around you that you are in the minority, an out group. Of course they will give you weird looks because you are not their normal experience and they will have a slight fear response. Naturally, you shouldn't give a fukk. Why?
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I overuse this image but it's necessary because people don't get how little meaning there is in strangers. Do they pay your bills? Are they offering you any value? No. So challenge yourself to break your conditioning, no matter how futile the attempt will be.

I talk myself through lots of processes on the way to work. If I talk to myself once, I don't need to do it 4-5 times in my head. If someone notices me I just flash a smile and go about the rest of my day.

While I've never had full blown conversations with myself out in public, I've somehow managed to create this sort of explanation for the few times I've been caught talking to myself about something and got observed.

I just go "I'm thinking on something and it's easier to talk it out loud where I can lose the question, hear it, and try and figure it out..sorta like House and his medical team he talks to to help his train of thought going, ya know?"

And that's not too far from the truth because talking out loud helps my brain to breathe and it relaxes me when we come to an acceptable conclusion.

Since I've started to smoke weed, I've found myself talking/writing/formulating alot of shyt that I simply can't just focus on mentally for fear of clouding my already addled brain when I'm high and the shyt feels wonderful 'cause I'm already happy when I'm high so it's like I've got a short window to make progress on so many mundane but important shyt...but with a constant smile on my face while being ensconced in happiness. shyts beautiful.
 
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