Essential The Mental Health Thread

[Supreme HD]

im close to the edge of ending it brehs and brehettes. im crying most days and don't know what to do anymore The more I wake up everyday and live the more im fed up with this world because I cant deal with everything anymore.

family
graduate jobs
everything.
feeling worthless as a black man
suffering
broke
struggling to make ends meet
downtrodden
feeling useless as fukk.

im close to the edge and I want to end it. I want to end it brehs, I honestly cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. my hard work isn't paying off, I feel lonely, angry, sick and ultimately useless. im reaching that point where i cant take it anymore. what's the point in living if you cant enjoy life, right?

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[Prynce]

im close to the edge of ending it brehs and brehettes. im crying most days and don't know what to do anymore The more I wake up everyday and live the more im fed up with this world because I cant deal with everything anymore.

family
graduate jobs
everything.
feeling worthless as a black man
suffering
broke
struggling to make ends meet
downtrodden
feeling useless as fukk.

im close to the edge and I want to end it. I want to end it brehs, I honestly cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. my hard work isn't paying off, I feel lonely, angry, sick and ultimately useless. im reaching that point where i cant take it anymore. what's the point in living if you cant enjoy life, right?

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Breh you got to keep going. I know its hard right now but you have to make changes in your life. If you don't feel happy you have to go chase it. Meet new people. Get new surroundings. You have to have faith and believe that shyt will get better for you. Life can change so fast and it will change for the better breh. Just got to give it time. You go to keep moving even when times are hard because I promise better days are coming beloved.


Don't make a permanate decision for something that is temporary because one day you're gonna look back and think that whatever you're going through wasn't that big. So breh surround yourself with people who love you and surround yourself with good energy. Go out tonight and don't sit mopping alone in your thoughts because the devil be lying to you when you're alone. Go out and have a adventure TONIGHT meet new people, get drunk, explore and trust that things are gonna be for the better. As a black person I got real love for you off the strength of that alone. Somebody cares breh just know that.

 

[mamba]

im close to the edge of ending it brehs and brehettes. im crying most days and don't know what to do anymore The more I wake up everyday and live the more im fed up with this world because I cant deal with everything anymore.

family
graduate jobs
everything.
feeling worthless as a black man
suffering
broke
struggling to make ends meet
downtrodden
feeling useless as fukk.

im close to the edge and I want to end it. I want to end it brehs, I honestly cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. my hard work isn't paying off, I feel lonely, angry, sick and ultimately useless. im reaching that point where i cant take it anymore. what's the point in living if you cant enjoy life, right?

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Breh. You've got plenty to live for. You are not useless. You have plenty of worth as a Black man. We need you. You are needed.

As @Prynce said, we care. As a Black man, you are my brother. Stay strong.

It always gets greater later.

 

[Supreme HD]

Breh you got to keep going. I know its hard right now but you have to make changes in your life. If you don't feel happy you have to go chase it. Meet new people. Get new surroundings. You have to have faith and believe that shyt will get better for you. Life can change so fast and it will change for the better breh. Just got to give it time. You go to keep moving even when times are hard because I promise better days are coming beloved.


Don't make a permanate decision for something that is temporary because one day you're gonna look back and think that whatever you're going through wasn't that big. So breh surround yourself with people who love you and surround yourself with good energy. Go out tonight and don't sit mopping alone in your thoughts because the devil be lying to you when you're alone. Go out and have a adventure TONIGHT meet new people, get drunk, explore and trust that things are gonna be for the better. As a black person I got real love for you off the strength of that alone. Somebody cares breh just know that.

Breh. You've got plenty to live for. You are not useless. You have plenty of worth as a Black man. We need you. You are needed.

As @Prynce said, we care. As a Black man, you are my brother. Stay strong.

It always gets greater later.

Thank you bruhs. Thank you. i just don't know if there will be a light at the end of the tunnel.

 

[Prynce]

Thank you bruhs. Thank you. i just don't know if there will be a light at the end of the tunnel.

Everything gets better breh just give it time trust that it will.

 

[Scott Larock]

I'm fall back for a bit before I lose it and kill somebody, I'm realizing it doesn't matter what I do I'm judged for what I have. I really hate my upbringing and I don't talk to my family at all, I registered for a program, if I don't get in, I'm gonna move away and sleep in the car and just work crappy jobs for a few years. My mind is having a hard time of dealing with the reality of things... everything from pro blacks, to tv and to music, I'm falling back from all of it.

 

[Prynce]

I've become extremely misanthropic, miserly and wretched. I don't care about other people at all, like I could see a person die in front of me and I would feel nothing. I've become extremely reckless and I could careless about the consequences of my actions. I'm quiting this job and I am seriously thinking on dropping out in my senior year. I can't be bothered anymore with shyt I have no enthusiasm or motivation to do. All I do now is stay home and started picked up vices.

 

[全能の神]

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[Audemar]

I don't care about other people at all, like I could see a person die in front of me and I would feel nothing. I've become extremely reckless and I could careless about the consequences of my actions. I'm quiting this job and I am seriously thinking on dropping out in my senior year. I can't be bothered anymore with shyt I have no enthusiasm or motivation to do. All I do now is stay home and started picked up vices.

Sounds like me. Well, almost.

 

[Hope]

I am a mess today, i saw a bad night coming. Literally felt like I was going to choke or punch someone today for no reason, and i was feeling great all day and serene, so im not sure where the violent thoughts came from.

fukkkin food is so hard to eat. probably ate 3 spoiled items today. Need to stop doing anything involving money after 10 pm. Stomach is hurting a lot and feeling chest discomfort (anxiety). Money and food are very tight. going out for a walk, and it's thunderstorm.

I can prolly come up with a solution or think more positive by Sunday, and I really want a cigarette or drink, but that won't help.

I mean i still smoke cigarettes, but I just need a shower or something light to eat that's fresh.

 

[Prynce]

Given me a different outlook on life

 

[Hope]

I had like 5 incidences or waking up in a different room with food all over the place past two months. It stopped for a while then happened again three days ago. I thought I was over-medicated, but this is not a side effect of any med i'm on (Latuda, Neurontin, and Depakote).

I asked for a decrease in Depakote and I now feel more human and motivated. I'm able to exercise and eat healthier again. The problem is that I still get thoughts of wanting to jump out of my skin that seem suicidal but they are not. My frustration and impatience or so intense I don't know what to do with myself. I do not feel sad or hopeless. But death and sickness come to my mind a lot.

I mean my mother became disabled this year, my father needed emergency surgery this week, two friends died past two months. If I mention that I live on the 20th floor and fear I may accidentally jump off while sleeping is that crazy or or a legitimate concern? I don't recall I get to where i wake up. I have to call my doctor tomorrow and I see my therapist tomorrow evening. I'm not sure how serious it all is, because some basic things I still struggle with. But to me this seems like ordinary feelings and no tools to cope with it all. They know what's up, but I always have a fear of being committed.

I have a wedding coming up, an awesome concert to go, and a celebration for an milestone I achieved recently. It's also my mother's birthday, don't want to miss out.

 

[SheriffOG]

These are really good listens brehs, sometimes you gotta hear some simple shyt to help you but the key is not just agreeing but actually adopting the change you wanna see in your life. Salute.

 

[Prynce]

introspection is a gift and a curse. I'm too self aware about everything.

Spoiler

I get too attached and I don't like change when I found something I've became comfortable because I place value on shyt that's hard to find. So when I find something that fits me it I try not to let it go because it's rare for me to give a fukk. I don't want to say I have co-dependency issues because I'm use to things switching up on me so I've become numb to it but this time it's a lot harder. My logical side is losing a battle with my intuition/passionate self it seems. I did shyt I could never see myself doing because this was one thing I didn't want to get fukked up and I tried too hard. Acted so out of character out of desperation, it shocked the fukk out of me. It's funny nothing bothers me and very nonchalant about everything in life. My motto's are "it is what it is and it's gonna be what its gonna be" and "It be like that sometimes". shyt really don't get to me but now i'm internally twisted.

 

[Scott Larock]

think it's time to consider killing myself, I'm too depressed about life and I don't know what to do, way too depressed to keep on like this. I'm just not happy. old. broke and alone with little education and bills. I hate my whole family, I'm embarrassed of myself and my life and I don't even like to show my face to people.