Essential The Mental Health Thread

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Cuzo said:
Bitterness depression anxiety anger ....


I never went to school come from a single family home no real father and life is hitting me in also older than most of you.

Living off a little money tests not rrslly enough to sustain a man i resllg have a hard time Delong eofh life+ tend to gal to myself SMS get extremely angry SMS have hatred over Mr upbringing.

I drink a bit more these days go deal with life, IV been considering packing up sleeping in my car and starting over in a new city i have sickle cell so I have little ohysicsl strength.

Very depressed i don't do anything drastic but St times I feel like it. As a man I really need to go to school full time smut I bsve bills to pay and need to survive also no kids and most these women my age got several.

Stikknlooking for answers. I just thank god for having s job but I really hate how shyt turned out.
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Bro,

I was in your position a few years ago.

When i say every door was slammed in my face, i mean it. Every door

What got me out of that position was school

If you really wanna go back, don't wait, go ahead and do it ASAP

Depending on your income level, you can get a pell grant, you can take out loans too (Stafford loans, it doesn't matter how your credit is), but i'd only accept the loans if you really need the $

And you can take your classes online if it's more convenient

Seriously man, look into it, the sooner the better. I wish you the best. You'll get through this. I did. If i can do it, i know you can too.
 
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Mr Carter said:
Bro,

I was in your position a few years ago.

When i say every door was slammed in my face, i mean it. Every door

What got me out of that position was school

If you really wanna go back, don't wait, go ahead and do it ASAP

Depending on your income level, you can get a pell grant, you can take out loans too (Stafford loans, it doesn't matter how your credit is), but i'd only accept the loans if you really need the $

And you can take your classes online if it's more convenient

Seriously man, look into it, the sooner the better. I wish you the best. You'll get through this. I did. If i can do it, i know you can too.
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Yeah the thing is I feel funny working these jobs, grantee it's a job and it pays the bills but I feel like shyt seeing people my age making way more and knowing I should have been there. Also it's very time consuming, I wish I didn't have these bills I'd just go full time. I was looking at s technical security class at s trade school its online only for 3 months.

College for me is 5 to 7 years and I'm older that's too long.
 
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My paranoia is still there at moments. Been changing my ways, letting go of some resentments, but it's still there. I sort of wanted a drink just now when I went to the diner alone to clear my head. The past two hours was a roller coaster ride. Maybe I'm upset because it wasn't the quiet environment i expected. Maybe I'm upset because I because I didn't get what I want. I know what I have a pattern of doing, I know what's out there at 2:30 am on a Sunday.

My Higher Power is definitely watching over me, but I doing things my way a bit too much.
 
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But I always get clowned on here for being forward about my shyt. I'm taking notes and checking comments. I'll be civil about this. But some of you said some dirty shyt to me. If I were a POS I'd wait until someone revealed something very personal about themselves then I'd be immature and insensitive in my response. But since I'm not a POS, I'll forgive and support you. Though I wasn't offered the same treatment. Guess I'm on my Jesus shyt.
 
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I've been through soo much shyt. Me and my family. We go through what the ordinary black family isn't going through. If my life doesn't improve soon I'll consider ending it. This is just too much suffering. Hurts even more that I literally haven't got good friends and everything in relation to a girl just falls through. Hardly got any money, just have a few saving in case my mom needs help paying the rest. Feel worthless as fukk seeing my parents look extremely stressed out. Graduated from school and the next step for me is to take a massive bank loan that if I don't get a job after it I'll struggle to pay it. It's hard to get company sponsorship because corporations here in the UK are racist as fukk and hardly black men get offered it. I feel like I've reached a dead end honestly and it's killing me inside. Like I said I'll consider ending my life if no improvements happen. I've suffered way too much in life so far, too much.
 
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Supreme HD said:
I've been through soo much shyt. Me and my family. We go through what the ordinary black family isn't going through. If my life doesn't improve soon I'll consider ending it. This is just too much suffering. Hurts even more that I literally haven't got good friends and everything in relation to a girl just falls through. Hardly got any money, just have a few saving in case my mom needs help paying the rest. Feel worthless as fukk seeing my parents look extremely stressed out. Graduated from school and the next step for me is to take a massive bank loan that if I don't get a job after it I'll struggle to pay it. It's hard to get company sponsorship because corporations here in the UK are racist as fukk and hardly black men get offered it. I feel like I've reached a dead end honestly and it's killing me inside. Like I said I'll consider ending my life if no improvements happen. I've suffered way too much in life so far, too much.
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If it makes you feel better. I'm Black, 6'4 visible scars all over me. Been to prison and I graduated found a job couple weeks after I graduated and they're paying for me to do a masters degree.

Never give up.

I got tendencies to wallow in self pity too so I understand. Just gotta channel that fighting spirit bruh.

To be fair through all the success I've gained in the last year i thought it would make me happier but it hasn't. Still have constant thoughts of suicide n shyt. I talk to my girl n she thinks I'm playing mannn I just don't know. Feel like I was more happier when I smoked weed.
 
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HoopDreams94 said:
If it makes you feel better. I'm Black, 6'4 visible scars all over me. Been to prison and I graduated found a job couple weeks after I graduated and they're paying for me to do a masters degree.

Never give up.

I got tendencies to wallow in self pity too so I understand. Just gotta channel that fighting spirit bruh.

To be fair through all the success I've gained in the last year i thought it would make me happier but it hasn't. Still have constant thoughts of suicide n shyt. I talk to my girl n she thinks I'm playing mannn I just don't know. Feel like I was more happier when I smoked weed.
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Bro smoke if it helps its better than. Going and getting addicted to benzo or being on some poison anti depressant
 
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Dont know if its really that serious but recently I'm often sad & nostalgic as fukk. Thinking bout last summer which was GOAT and compared to it everything right now sucks badly :mjcry::mjcry:
shyts unbelievable how things can change from great to shyt in such a short time...
 
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