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Essential The Mental Health Thread
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Krazy
Rifle weh taller dan palm tree
Merry Christmas to those who celebrate.
Be easy on yourself! Better days are coming
Be easy on yourself! Better days are coming
I live a boring and uneventful life. It could be worse but shyt isnt all sunshine and roses. Each year that i get older, the more 
i feel than being at peace. I really dont know how ive been able to get to this point without having a moment of having a nervous breakdown or crashing out. Its like Im holding it all in which i personally think is having a negative effect on my health. All that anger, depression, internal pain and shyt for all these years and decades of that shyt, i have to watch my health. 20, 25 years of being angry, anxious, depressed and etc. Slowly getting answers but...
But the flipside of that is if i do crash out, flip out, or just implode then i believe that theres some people who are waiting for that moment to go "we told you so", ready to celebrate and applaud for my downfall and/or demise-death, want to see me incarcerated, and etc etc. So im just thinking about how to go about fighting this internal monster while going about with my life. Writing in my journal and writing my feelings, worries, hurt and etc isnt enough.. i dont have it in me though to take that shyt so i go to sleep.
That ready to crash out button was tested yesterday. Some young dude thought he was going to cut in front of me yesterday at the air pump station. I was ready to go off but realized that the tire light was still on despite me my tires being the right amount of air. Then i realized i didnt need it so i bounced. I caught myself then realized i needed to just get away from that spot because i thought i was being put in a trap to get me to go off. It happened around an area i USED to work at too and Im familiar with the level of ignorance and
that is known in those parts.
But i spent all day vaping weed and just sleeping on the floor thinking, fantasizing and just being in hell mentally.
shyt one day theres gonna be a tv show about my life so that other people going through the same struggle can relate and have hope. Trying to figure out how to be well.
i feel than being at peace. I really dont know how ive been able to get to this point without having a moment of having a nervous breakdown or crashing out. Its like Im holding it all in which i personally think is having a negative effect on my health. All that anger, depression, internal pain and shyt for all these years and decades of that shyt, i have to watch my health. 20, 25 years of being angry, anxious, depressed and etc. Slowly getting answers but...But the flipside of that is if i do crash out, flip out, or just implode then i believe that theres some people who are waiting for that moment to go "we told you so", ready to celebrate and applaud for my downfall and/or demise-death, want to see me incarcerated, and etc etc. So im just thinking about how to go about fighting this internal monster while going about with my life. Writing in my journal and writing my feelings, worries, hurt and etc isnt enough.. i dont have it in me though to take that shyt so i go to sleep.
That ready to crash out button was tested yesterday. Some young dude thought he was going to cut in front of me yesterday at the air pump station. I was ready to go off but realized that the tire light was still on despite me my tires being the right amount of air. Then i realized i didnt need it so i bounced. I caught myself then realized i needed to just get away from that spot because i thought i was being put in a trap to get me to go off. It happened around an area i USED to work at too and Im familiar with the level of ignorance and
that is known in those parts. But i spent all day vaping weed and just sleeping on the floor thinking, fantasizing and just being in hell mentally.
shyt one day theres gonna be a tv show about my life so that other people going through the same struggle can relate and have hope. Trying to figure out how to be well.
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Krazy
Rifle weh taller dan palm tree
Decided to come off anti depressants been on different ones on and of over last years.
So tapering off with the doctor.
On Effexor…Which I’ve heard is hell to get off of without experiencing extreme withdrawal symptoms…I already get headaches and brain saps if I don’t take it within 24 hours so pray for me lol
Just want to see how I feel completely off them as can’t remember last time I was off them completely.
Not sure how much they’ve helped overall personally, they’re not magic pills. And likely have helped me manage day to day but yeah wanna do a few months off.
I’m anticipating my mental health being up and down more than ever by coming off especially over next few months.
We’ll see though keep yall posted
What’s really impacting me rn is feeling stuck in my current job…Comfy but it’s not paying enough and I’m bored of that shyt add in my ADHD and that’s a disaster.
Looking at jobs but feeling have a general sense of lack of purpose feel like I’m just rotting away in the background
Stay up kings
So tapering off with the doctor.
On Effexor…Which I’ve heard is hell to get off of without experiencing extreme withdrawal symptoms…I already get headaches and brain saps if I don’t take it within 24 hours so pray for me lol
Just want to see how I feel completely off them as can’t remember last time I was off them completely.
Not sure how much they’ve helped overall personally, they’re not magic pills. And likely have helped me manage day to day but yeah wanna do a few months off.
I’m anticipating my mental health being up and down more than ever by coming off especially over next few months.
We’ll see though keep yall posted
What’s really impacting me rn is feeling stuck in my current job…Comfy but it’s not paying enough and I’m bored of that shyt add in my ADHD and that’s a disaster.
Looking at jobs but feeling have a general sense of lack of purpose feel like I’m just rotting away in the background
Stay up kings
I haven't really been in the good graces lately concerning my mental state. I tried to pick up spirits along with my own, but reality hits that you can't save everybody. I wish I could, but I haven't saved myself. So I have been sort of taking a mini break from this site as far as posting frequently all due to the nonsense in the White House, my beliefs that I hold so dear to me, but sadly I have to realize that nobody can't see through the eyes I see, or experience the same feelings that I experience.
I struggle with that, even on a personal level. I have always wanted to change the atmosphere from unpleasant to uplifting. Maybe that's why I became a "koala" as they are a joy to be around, stay in their place, and sleep, eat, etc lol.
I realize that I can't fix anything but myself. So on that note...
Bear with the marsupial, ya animal trying.
I struggle with that, even on a personal level. I have always wanted to change the atmosphere from unpleasant to uplifting. Maybe that's why I became a "koala" as they are a joy to be around, stay in their place, and sleep, eat, etc lol.
I realize that I can't fix anything but myself. So on that note...
Bear with the marsupial, ya animal trying.
I just remembered, that one time a vice principal once asked me why I smile so much, and now as an adult I've got such a noticeable resting flat effect that I have to start practicing smiling.
Crazy how that turned out.
Crazy how that turned out.
Krazy
Rifle weh taller dan palm tree
Officially off Effexor tapered off from 225 > 0 at 2 week intervals reducing my 37.5 at a time.
Hasn’t been as bad as I thought, as one of the hardest to come off due to its very short half life.
First initial days after decreasing each time clear withdrawal symptoms and low mood.
Usually stabilises after a few days.
Think I encountered some sexual side effects and still am atm
Been completely off since Wednesday low mood and energy to be expected. Hopefully things will pick up just got to try and not rot in bed and be active. Easier said than done…
I’m generally fed up anyway atm so
My main problem atm since being off is nausea and electric shocks in my head. Everytime i move my elbows feel zap in my brain
I’ve had this before when I stopped Zoloft cold turkey lol
Just hope it stops soon some say typically resolves within few weeks but could be longer.
Whether I’ll stay anti depressant free long term we’ll see. I do want to give my body a break and just try other things.
Although one thing I’ll say don’t feel ashamed about taking or enquiring about meds for your mental health.
No shame in getting your head right and if popping a pill can help why not…Might not be the miracle solution but trust me had I not been on them on/off over years i may not be here
Sensitive Christian Grey
The Fisher King
Yikes. In my case, hes correct. Im a hurt person who doesnt know how to heal.
Thats exactly what happened to me when i stopped taking zoloft.
horrible feeling. Had that for months all the way up to almost a year. Never again.Well its may, mid 2025. What can i say? Self control has saved me for real. Just need to just do more hobbies and follow what i need to do. I can stop vaping weed tomorrow if i wanted to. Maybe i need to. Been spending A LOT of time with myself. Thats NOTHING new for me though. Most of my life ive spent a lot of time alone with myself so being depressed while isolated doesn't bother me so much. Its not just that. Im used to hiding when im upset or depressed around other people where at times, its written on my face that im out of it and sometimes people ask me the dreaded question "whats wrong?" Its like "why you wanna know my business?"
Sadly, im going to stop going to my therapist. Unless its necessary, im not going to keep going to do these damn therapists. Im confused. Everytime i think im not well, feel depressed and shyt, i go to these guys. When i tell them whats going on with me, first off, i feel like im wasting my time. I tell them everything and get the same response from these guys. Its an almost "thats it?" response. I basically get told to do the shyt i know i need to do but struggle to do. Get some advice here and there that is useful and waste months in therapy to be in the same place. Maybe i need a break from these therapists for now and figure out a way to channel this pain amongst other things that apparently i have to help myself with. Im being told that my issues arent bad enough or im not that crazy where i need help as there are worse people out there. I dont get it so i guess i have to believe it. Best believe im pissed off and dont give a flying fukk what anybody thinks. I feel i have a RIGHT to be mad and fukk you if you think i dont.
However, Im not going to take out my anger on people. In fact, im figuring out how to spend my day. Go to bear mountain,i would like to go to somewhere isolated in the woods around the area. Theres plenty of activities i plan on doing.
Sadly, im going to stop going to my therapist. Unless its necessary, im not going to keep going to do these damn therapists. Im confused. Everytime i think im not well, feel depressed and shyt, i go to these guys. When i tell them whats going on with me, first off, i feel like im wasting my time. I tell them everything and get the same response from these guys. Its an almost "thats it?" response. I basically get told to do the shyt i know i need to do but struggle to do. Get some advice here and there that is useful and waste months in therapy to be in the same place. Maybe i need a break from these therapists for now and figure out a way to channel this pain amongst other things that apparently i have to help myself with. Im being told that my issues arent bad enough or im not that crazy where i need help as there are worse people out there. I dont get it so i guess i have to believe it.
Best believe im pissed off and dont give a flying fukk what anybody thinks. I feel i have a RIGHT to be mad and fukk you if you think i dont.However, Im not going to take out my anger on people. In fact, im figuring out how to spend my day. Go to bear mountain,i would like to go to somewhere isolated in the woods around the area. Theres plenty of activities i plan on doing.
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Krazy
Rifle weh taller dan palm tree
Thankfully those brain zaps this time only lasted a month maybe?Thats exactly what happened to me when i stopped taking zoloft.
Only the other day I noticed I no longer have them
Feel like I got used to them in the end