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I hope you lot are all doing ok, I know the holidays can be tough for some.
Essential The Mental Health Thread
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Krazy
Rifle weh taller dan palm tree
Merry Christmas to those who celebrate.
Be easy on yourself! Better days are coming
Be easy on yourself! Better days are coming
I live a boring and uneventful life. It could be worse but shyt isnt all sunshine and roses. Each year that i get older, the more 
i feel than being at peace. I really dont know how ive been able to get to this point without having a moment of having a nervous breakdown or crashing out. Its like Im holding it all in which i personally think is having a negative effect on my health. All that anger, depression, internal pain and shyt for all these years and decades of that shyt, i have to watch my health. 20, 25 years of being angry, anxious, depressed and etc. Slowly getting answers but...
But the flipside of that is if i do crash out, flip out, or just implode then i believe that theres some people who are waiting for that moment to go "we told you so", ready to celebrate and applaud for my downfall and/or demise-death, want to see me incarcerated, and etc etc. So im just thinking about how to go about fighting this internal monster while going about with my life. Writing in my journal and writing my feelings, worries, hurt and etc isnt enough.. i dont have it in me though to take that shyt so i go to sleep.
That ready to crash out button was tested yesterday. Some young dude thought he was going to cut in front of me yesterday at the air pump station. I was ready to go off but realized that the tire light was still on despite me my tires being the right amount of air. Then i realized i didnt need it so i bounced. I caught myself then realized i needed to just get away from that spot because i thought i was being put in a trap to get me to go off. It happened around an area i USED to work at too and Im familiar with the level of ignorance and
that is known in those parts.
But i spent all day vaping weed and just sleeping on the floor thinking, fantasizing and just being in hell mentally.
shyt one day theres gonna be a tv show about my life so that other people going through the same struggle can relate and have hope. Trying to figure out how to be well.
i feel than being at peace. I really dont know how ive been able to get to this point without having a moment of having a nervous breakdown or crashing out. Its like Im holding it all in which i personally think is having a negative effect on my health. All that anger, depression, internal pain and shyt for all these years and decades of that shyt, i have to watch my health. 20, 25 years of being angry, anxious, depressed and etc. Slowly getting answers but...But the flipside of that is if i do crash out, flip out, or just implode then i believe that theres some people who are waiting for that moment to go "we told you so", ready to celebrate and applaud for my downfall and/or demise-death, want to see me incarcerated, and etc etc. So im just thinking about how to go about fighting this internal monster while going about with my life. Writing in my journal and writing my feelings, worries, hurt and etc isnt enough.. i dont have it in me though to take that shyt so i go to sleep.
That ready to crash out button was tested yesterday. Some young dude thought he was going to cut in front of me yesterday at the air pump station. I was ready to go off but realized that the tire light was still on despite me my tires being the right amount of air. Then i realized i didnt need it so i bounced. I caught myself then realized i needed to just get away from that spot because i thought i was being put in a trap to get me to go off. It happened around an area i USED to work at too and Im familiar with the level of ignorance and
that is known in those parts. But i spent all day vaping weed and just sleeping on the floor thinking, fantasizing and just being in hell mentally.
shyt one day theres gonna be a tv show about my life so that other people going through the same struggle can relate and have hope. Trying to figure out how to be well.
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Krazy
Rifle weh taller dan palm tree
Decided to come off anti depressants been on different ones on and of over last years.
So tapering off with the doctor.
On Effexor…Which I’ve heard is hell to get off of without experiencing extreme withdrawal symptoms…I already get headaches and brain saps if I don’t take it within 24 hours so pray for me lol
Just want to see how I feel completely off them as can’t remember last time I was off them completely.
Not sure how much they’ve helped overall personally, they’re not magic pills. And likely have helped me manage day to day but yeah wanna do a few months off.
I’m anticipating my mental health being up and down more than ever by coming off especially over next few months.
We’ll see though keep yall posted
What’s really impacting me rn is feeling stuck in my current job…Comfy but it’s not paying enough and I’m bored of that shyt add in my ADHD and that’s a disaster.
Looking at jobs but feeling have a general sense of lack of purpose feel like I’m just rotting away in the background
Stay up kings
So tapering off with the doctor.
On Effexor…Which I’ve heard is hell to get off of without experiencing extreme withdrawal symptoms…I already get headaches and brain saps if I don’t take it within 24 hours so pray for me lol
Just want to see how I feel completely off them as can’t remember last time I was off them completely.
Not sure how much they’ve helped overall personally, they’re not magic pills. And likely have helped me manage day to day but yeah wanna do a few months off.
I’m anticipating my mental health being up and down more than ever by coming off especially over next few months.
We’ll see though keep yall posted
What’s really impacting me rn is feeling stuck in my current job…Comfy but it’s not paying enough and I’m bored of that shyt add in my ADHD and that’s a disaster.
Looking at jobs but feeling have a general sense of lack of purpose feel like I’m just rotting away in the background
Stay up kings
