Word that sounds like a solid plan... Having something to look forward to down the line is important. Gotta avoid that headspace where you don't care about anything and aren't looking forward to anything. That hole is hard to climb out of
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Mandarin Duck
Majestic and Highfalutin
How do y'all deal with birthdays?
My birthday is tomorrow and I've been avoiding thinking about but it just hit me like a wave of depression.
For some reason birthdays have become almost like annual evaluations for myself. I look over my life and if I'm happy and every year the answer is no and I just spend my birthday depressed.
I really don't want to be like this anymore as a whole but especially on my birthday.
My birthday is tomorrow and I've been avoiding thinking about but it just hit me like a wave of depression.
For some reason birthdays have become almost like annual evaluations for myself. I look over my life and if I'm happy and every year the answer is no and I just spend my birthday depressed.
I really don't want to be like this anymore as a whole but especially on my birthday.
Exlurkernegro
Judge me by my heart not my hairline
I just try to view it as another day.
, I wouldnt wish this on anyone
Pedro Negro
Reefer & Sneakers
So I've just been prescribed medication for the first time (Prozac) at the same time my teen was just prescribed Zoloft. What a week is all I can say.
Any advice, personal experiences or info in general any brehs have had with either med?
Any advice, personal experiences or info in general any brehs have had with either med?
I agree with all of this and would add get tested for sleep apnea, lots of folks have it and don’t know it . Lack of restful sleep can cause ADHD type symptoms in addition to a plethora of other issues.
RealCrownHeights
All Star
Rough couple of days, went to my third funeral in my godmothers family. Her mother, aunt and uncle died all within a span of 7 months. I was supposed to help him set up his computer in his home. The messed up part is I felt and related to him in the fact that once his sister's left he just did not feel the need to continue. I feel sometimes like I'm on life support and people should pull the plug. My ex called and we got into an argument, she doesn't want to me with me right now and wants to see me get 6 certs and 6 figures and all that before she can entertain me again because when we dated I was stagnant and not sure of my career. Big huge fight to the point I was trying to study in a cafe and felt myself wanting to punch the next person that looked at me so I left. This girl who is a legit 8.5 I was fukking when me and my ex broke up but ghosted me and would randomly hit me up invited me her party because she is moving to LA, I wasn't going to go but after the funeral and my ex and not studying I said f it. I went, she looked good af, hugged me and said I can't believe you came and I leave next week. Texted her today lets grab a drink before you leave- no reply. After her party, I let my friend convince me to go to the strip club but I was just not feeling the vibe not to mention spending mad money. Pastor talks on Sunday getting kind of repetitive too like I get the concept of grace already we don't have to keep talking about the same topics of Christianity. I really hope this psychiatrist I speak to this week helps $50 copay just give me a pill so I don't curse anyone out or physically harm myself or others. I have to be on of the pallbearer this Saturday,
TheAnointedOne
Superstar
I just came out of a period of delusions and some pretty intense psychotic mania. It was a rough couple of weeks that ended in a deep, paranoid, anxious depression. I’m waiting to talk to a psychiatrist for medicinal updates and changes. In the meantime I had a realization:
My delusions and psychotic episodes are based on an unstable internal understanding of self and reality. Basically, my view of self and reality was distorted and this fueled my mental anguish and detachment from reality.
I had an idealized, saccharine view of the world in which everyone is nice but misunderstood, redemption is possible for all and happy endings are ubiquitous. This obviously untrue as some people are mean or evil, redemption isn’t always possible and happy endings don’t exist for everyone in a world where 80% of humanity lives on less than 10 dollars a day.
My fear about the real world and my desperate idealism had mentally stunted me and not allowed to deal with my traumas in a substantive fashion. By realizing that life can be dark and painful, I can work with it and grow even in the face of adversity. More importantly, by accepting that bad things happen and oftentimes for no reason, I can now help myself and others more meaningfully.
I feel clarity for the first since in a decade brehs. It was hard fought for but I’m glad I am getting better now. I am working getting the qualifications for a career in software development as well as getting back into visual art and writing poetry again. Spiritually, I am working on shadow integration and learning about meditation.
For anyone who is struggling out there. Take it easy and don’t worry too much. Better days are on the horizon. Just try to find your peace and maintain it.
My delusions and psychotic episodes are based on an unstable internal understanding of self and reality. Basically, my view of self and reality was distorted and this fueled my mental anguish and detachment from reality.
I had an idealized, saccharine view of the world in which everyone is nice but misunderstood, redemption is possible for all and happy endings are ubiquitous. This obviously untrue as some people are mean or evil, redemption isn’t always possible and happy endings don’t exist for everyone in a world where 80% of humanity lives on less than 10 dollars a day.
My fear about the real world and my desperate idealism had mentally stunted me and not allowed to deal with my traumas in a substantive fashion. By realizing that life can be dark and painful, I can work with it and grow even in the face of adversity. More importantly, by accepting that bad things happen and oftentimes for no reason, I can now help myself and others more meaningfully.
I feel clarity for the first since in a decade brehs. It was hard fought for but I’m glad I am getting better now. I am working getting the qualifications for a career in software development as well as getting back into visual art and writing poetry again. Spiritually, I am working on shadow integration and learning about meditation.
For anyone who is struggling out there. Take it easy and don’t worry too much. Better days are on the horizon. Just try to find your peace and maintain it.
I'm in the same exact space as you even down to the IBS, it sucks. I think someone else said it, you have to have goals things to look forward to in life to move on and i just dont care anymore. It's a weird feeling, like i dont care anymore about anymore and dont really have anything I'm looking forward too because I dont have interest in anything. Things I used to care about, I ask what feeling was it that even made me care. Happiness is temporary, but I've truly even forgotten the last time I just "lived"
I've started talking to a breh who is a therapist, but damn it is hard to tell someone everything in 45 min sessions remotely
Edit: ^^^^^^ We are here for ya man if you need someone to speak too, the aimless stuff is real
@It was always you koba
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My bipolar is getting worse. Yesterday I was in a really dark place and mood, feeling almost suicidal woth no hope about my future . Today it’s the complete opposite. I’m feeling good as fukk, full of optimism about the future and about to make plans
I have the same issue within my Schizoaffective-bipolar type. I think what you’re going through can be called ultra rapid cycling. It’s really tough to deal with and just takes the life out of you. I can go from feeling invincible one week to feeling like dirt on the ground the next. Are you able to talk to a professional, brother? It’s good that today’s better btw. I hope the happiness can last some time and give you the relief to be happy and make plans.