Essential The Mental Health Thread

[Monsanto]

Its been over a week and my high died down, as expected. Although I looked forward to the end of this high emotion and incredibly happy state I want it back. I want to stay at that level consistently.

As a person who was raised to question why, I had to find the source of this happiness and dived into the recesses of my core. A lot of internalized feelings, crutches I held onto to feel complete and pieces of me separated by years; locked in chains.

I turned the light on and the cavernous cluttering of my soul raised a stat of happiness that warms me routinely. Lips affixed to a smile and eyes pulpous with new lenses, I can do things and believe in them too.

What I expressed over this month was decades in the making. I'm glad to be here and I wouldn't be here without the struggle from the start. I burst pieces of my power long enough to realize this is what I want. This is how I should feel. This is how I should see things.

Im proud of myself and I can keep going. To be stuck here isn't why I worked through it all. There are taller mountains to ascend. Snowfalls become colder on climbing this peak, everyone may not make it to the top with you and but keep going.

There is always a bigger height to conquer.

Much love Coli brothers and sisters, I hope the sun may feel warm on your face as you continue to climb.

 

[hostsamurai]

First post of the decade.

I still find meaning in life but I also wouldn't mind being blinked out of existence. Call it a passive death wish. I have ambitions, things I want to see and experience but none of them are mundane making them difficult to grasp.

 

[Milk N Cookies]

So far this year is ok. Next month I can start back my sessions but I only get 6 in my plan... if my mental takes a dive I may have to just use the free sessions & work out something as far as cost per session

 

[Womb Raider]

Mentally I am drained...I had two people turn on me that I thought were friends. I allowed someone to stay in my home because I wanted to help him out, he ended up taking advantage of that and staying an entire year. I told him to leave last year after he kept forgetting to flush the damn toilet and this motherfukker was giving me push back...continued to damage the house, leaving the living room smelling like shyt, letting his brother stay over and eat food he didn’t pay for, being loud and noisy all times of the night...because me, my roommate, and the guy who stayed over were all friends I thought I’d have some support...nope I got tired of his shyt and told his brother not to eat anyone’s food while he’s here. This motherfukker cut me off and told me not to speak to his brother so I told him to leave. He refused. I swung on that guy, my roommate came downstairs broke us up and immediately took his side physically, asked him to leave to which the nikka said yeah...15 min later he still here and let his brother in. I called the cops and put them out. Had my dad mediate the situation. My roommate bend over backwards to defend the ghetto ass nikka that got himself put out, and even tried to say he could still come back...


I just can’t wrap my head around my guy taking advantage of me and my roommate bending over backwards for him...he paid 1/4 of the electric bill and acted as if his name was on the lease....and my roommate supported him on this!

brehs I am completely flabbergasted at this bullshyt! I’m cutting off all my current friends and starting over when this lease ends, I can’t fukking deal with this shyt.

 

[Mtt]

Mentally I am drained...I had two people turn on me that I thought were friends. I allowed someone to stay in my home because I wanted to help him out, he ended up taking advantage of that and staying an entire year. I told him to leave last year after he kept forgetting to flush the damn toilet and this motherfukker was giving me push back...continued to damage the house, leaving the living room smelling like shyt, letting his brother stay over and eat food he didn’t pay for, being loud and noisy all times of the night...because me, my roommate, and the guy who stayed over were all friends I thought I’d have some support...nope I got tired of his shyt and told his brother not to eat anyone’s food while he’s here. This motherfukker cut me off and told me not to speak to his brother so I told him to leave. He refused. I swung on that guy, my roommate came downstairs broke us up and immediately took his side physically, asked him to leave to which the nikka said yeah...15 min later he still here and let his brother in. I called the cops and put them out. Had my dad mediate the situation. My roommate bend over backwards to defend the ghetto ass nikka that got himself put out, and even tried to say he could still come back...


I just can’t wrap my head around my guy taking advantage of me and my roommate bending over backwards for him...he paid 1/4 of the electric bill and acted as if his name was on the lease....and my roommate supported him on this!

brehs I am completely flabbergasted at this bullshyt! I’m cutting off all my current friends and starting over when this lease ends, I can’t fukking deal with this shyt.

that's sad man and so unfortunate.

 

[Womb Raider]

that's sad man and so unfortunate.

Breh I can barely deal with this shyt as is...everyday the shyt eats at me I can’t wait to move out this fukking house.

 

[semicko82]

Mentally I am drained...I had two people turn on me that I thought were friends. I allowed someone to stay in my home because I wanted to help him out, he ended up taking advantage of that and staying an entire year. I told him to leave last year after he kept forgetting to flush the damn toilet and this motherfukker was giving me push back...continued to damage the house, leaving the living room smelling like shyt, letting his brother stay over and eat food he didn’t pay for, being loud and noisy all times of the night...because me, my roommate, and the guy who stayed over were all friends I thought I’d have some support...nope I got tired of his shyt and told his brother not to eat anyone’s food while he’s here. This motherfukker cut me off and told me not to speak to his brother so I told him to leave. He refused. I swung on that guy, my roommate came downstairs broke us up and immediately took his side physically, asked him to leave to which the nikka said yeah...15 min later he still here and let his brother in. I called the cops and put them out. Had my dad mediate the situation. My roommate bend over backwards to defend the ghetto ass nikka that got himself put out, and even tried to say he could still come back...


I just can’t wrap my head around my guy taking advantage of me and my roommate bending over backwards for him...he paid 1/4 of the electric bill and acted as if his name was on the lease....and my roommate supported him on this!

brehs I am completely flabbergasted at this bullshyt! I’m cutting off all my current friends and starting over when this lease ends, I can’t fukking deal with this shyt.

Why did the friends turn on you

 

[semicko82]

So far this year is ok. Next month I can start back my sessions but I only get 6 in my plan... if my mental takes a dive I may have to just use the free sessions & work out something as far as cost per session

Do you feel like the sessions are helping you?
Thinking about talking to a therapist, but my ego and pride as a man is stopping me.

 

[Womb Raider]

Why did the friends turn on you

My roommate did because I owed him money. My former friend did because his own life sucks, I guess.

 

[Pimpdaddy]

Really had the urge to drink again today but I managed to stay sober again. Even tho my relationship of 6 years ended a few hours ago and I'm hurt. Alcohol was usually my first "problem solver"
It really was my goal to come in here and make this post.

 

[Mtt]

Do you feel like the sessions are helping you?
Thinking about talking to a therapist, but my ego and pride as a man is stopping me.

Give a try sometimes it's based on vibe of the therapist. Also understand that they are they "not to judge" good luck. Also perhaps group therapy with other folks or try anonymous groups (depending on your issue)

 

[semicko82]

Give a try sometimes it's based on vibe of the therapist. Also understand that they are they "not to judge" good luck. Also perhaps group therapy with other folks or try anonymous groups (depending on your issue)

It really hit me I needed therapy when I broke down in front of my siblings during a family visit.
I been holding so much shyt in the last 12 years

 

[semicko82]

Really had the urge to drink again today but I managed to stay sober again. Even tho my relationship of 6 years ended a few hours ago and I'm hurt. Alcohol was usually my first "problem solver"
It really was my goal to come in here and make this post.

I'm not an alcoholic, but I feel you on this. I'm using alcohol as crutch for my boredom

 

[98Ntu]

It’s been 8 years of severe mental illness. I’m in my early 20s. Birthday is in a week. I feel like I’ve given up on life too soon. I want to end up in remission and recovery for my issues. These disorders have taken so much and I can’t let them take anymore. I’m here to live and be free in the truest, most authentic, most visceral and powerful sense.

This is the beginning a prosperous era for me.

I just have give myself the chance to succeed.

Here’s to the next 8 years!

 

[Mtt]

It really hit me I needed therapy when I broke down in front of my siblings during a family visit.
I been holding so much shyt in the last 12 years

Wow man salute
For you to broke down like this. I diffinitely feel you need a therapist. Find out from your insurance. Understand it's normal to be nervous walking into a clinic just remember the same way you can be hurt physically like a broken leg ,you are working on your mind. These people are professionals and as you become comfortable talking don't hold back.also it will take time for a therapist to get to know you.