Worst decision I ever made was going to a small college as an older black veteran. The school is obsessed with me in an unhealthy way. I sit in class, and watch the kids not give a fukk whatsoever. I have good grades, don't bother anybody for the most part, and I let them fukk with my money for 3 plus years. I sit next to kids in one class where the teacher is Russian. He was pouring his heart out about the situation, and the athletes were literally talking about nothing during it. They never read or participate, and I sometimes just try to jump in so the guy feels like he's engaging us. I fukking hate the culture here, and I will never forgive myself for not just going to SJ State.