It's rules in the Random Thoughts thread now?this past 2 years made me realize i'm a very aggressive person, i'm gonna get shot one day for some of the shyt i pull...no pun intended
speaking of which, the fukk yall spamming videos in here for? there's a "what are you listening to" thread for that.
that was my "random thought"as the page was loading slow as fukk because of it
it didnt make sense to tell him to fill it guess then he'd think i needed a full tank and he'd walk away for awhile so i told the guy tonight to top me off 
couldnt believe what i said
I wanna hear your storyPeople will never know the true story of @*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
I went through so much bullshyt to get to where I am now. I lived a life that not many black people lived.
I actually grew up with money...went to private schools...family has an extravagant mansion in the burbs.
I'm a loner cause I don't mesh with 99.9% of people in this country...I was driven to feel like an outcast, a weirdo, an undersirable.
Never did well with women...the ones I did actually realized that I wasn't some loser. I was never a pimp or player. I've been broke and struggling for the vast majority of my adult life.
I've been homeless...had to sell stuff to get money. When no one would hire me cause they thought I was just another fukking dumb n*gger that didn't deserve to have a dime.
I've had to work ten times harder then most people just to be seen as worth a damn.
This led to much anger, resentment, bitterness, and depression I still deal with on a daily basis. And it's tough to fight.
Sometimes I feel like crying, sometimes I feel like destroying everything in my goddamn path. and just getting joy out of punching someone I hate in the face.
I wish I could be that type of dude that could have endless amounts of women swooning at their feet and could just have tons of p*ssy but that's never been my life. I've been alone for the majority of my life
I never knew what it was like to have a girlfriend.
I never knew what it was like to make more than $2,500 a year at any of the previous jobs I've had..
I apologize for being cold, harsh, distant, but there's been so much bullshyt projected at me that this is what I exude.
So, whatever success I have...hopefully it will make this hellish existence I've lived worthwhile.
I know that feeling.People will never know the true story of @*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
I went through so much bullshyt to get to where I am now. I lived a life that not many black people lived.
I actually grew up with money...went to private schools...family has an extravagant mansion in the burbs.
I'm a loner cause I don't mesh with 99.9% of people in this country...I was driven to feel like an outcast, a weirdo, an undersirable.
Never did well with women...the ones I did actually realized that I wasn't some loser. I was never a pimp or player. I've been broke and struggling for the vast majority of my adult life.
I've been homeless...had to sell stuff to get money. When no one would hire me cause they thought I was just another fukking dumb n*gger that didn't deserve to have a dime.
I've had to work ten times harder then most people just to be seen as worth a damn.
This led to much anger, resentment, bitterness, and depression I still deal with on a daily basis. And it's tough to fight.
Sometimes I feel like crying, sometimes I feel like destroying everything in my goddamn path. and just getting joy out of punching someone I hate in the face.
I wish I could be that type of dude that could have endless amounts of women swooning at their feet and could just have tons of p*ssy but that's never been my life. I've been alone for the majority of my life
I never knew what it was like to have a girlfriend.
I never knew what it was like to make more than $2,500 a year at any of the previous jobs I've had..
I apologize for being cold, harsh, distant, but there's been so much bullshyt projected at me that this is what I exude.
So, whatever success I have...hopefully it will make this hellish existence I've lived worthwhile.
but gotta get it fixed outta pocket 
I drive to her spot 20 minutes away while her two kids are sleep and I'm trying to Frank Underwood my way into agreeing to an abortion. 
