This is a fantasy you're making up in your mind to have an excuse to be weak. I'm not begging you to grapple brother.
If you think there aren't enough hugs in the grappling gym maybe choose another one.
Seems like a simple solution compared to being so damn dramatic. Relax.
If there's a racist cac among my training partners I'm probably choking him out, not the other way around. I'm not training for an invite to a monster truck rally. I want the power and maybe every now and then that comes from training with a bigot. I'm not getting into their personal politics to find out.
Something tells me you don't train in shyt because you don't talk like a warrior. Crybaby. I said go train!