I read the whole thing too. This isn't a monumental L from the normal perspective of how Ls are taken, (i.e. Simpery) but from the perspective of how this girl obviously seemed to be the prototypical "one" that you genuinely had something special with. The only gripe I have is that you were smashing chicks too and what
seems to be the catalyst that got all of this popping was your lapse in judgement at that party. Nonetheless. I think that its fukked up how in knowing how you felt about her, she comes back to you after getting pregnant by the other nikka trying to pick up where you all left off.
Plus like
@Emperor_ReinScarf said, taking back someone after infidelity (sex or even second bass) will always cause the victim in the relationship to hold resentment regardless as to whether or not the wayward partner is truly sorry and/or won't do it again. Not knocking you, just super sayin'.
BTW...I don't think she's going to get over this soon, especially since you have enough self-respect to focus on yourself and cut ties indefinitely. Don't have a lapse in judgement and hit her up
Bottom line is that you learned from this experience, you're not a bitter member of #HOH and you'll take this as a lesson that can only help you in your future endeavors. Take each day at a time breh.:hiya: