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[ellessij]

SIGH.

I've been sitting in my driveway crying in my car like the world's biggest wuss feeling down on myself.

The past year has just been ridiculously rough. Though life has always been tough, I feel like lately I've been feeling defeated.
I grew up in the foster system with my two sisters, one of my sisters passed away last year (which is basically half of the family I have). That threw me off more than anything. I have been dealing with her death in my own way, but I have tried to remain positive. I am in my last year of school, I have work (I'm a teacher), and I live on my own. Bills, tuition and work are just CRUSHING ME.

I got into a car accident today and now my car has to be repaired with cash I don't even have, cash I was saving towards this last year of school. I feel like no matter how many steps forward I make, I'm STILL trying to catch up. I feel like I'm drowning. Like I'm always drowning.

I just couldn't even bring myself to get out of my car. I know everyone has their struggles, I know everyone has had tough times. Honestly, I just need to hear some struggle stories. I need to hear how you/someone you know was down and how they motivated themselves to get back up.

Please, feel free to share. Knowing life is hard and stressful is a given, ACCEPTING that it is seems to be another story altogether.

 

[Dwolf]

SIGH.

I've been sitting in my driveway crying in my car like the world's biggest wuss feeling down on myself.

The past year has just been ridiculously rough. Though life has always been tough, I feel like lately I've been feeling defeated.
I grew up in the foster system with my two sisters, one of my sisters passed away last year (which is basically half of the family I have). That threw me off more than anything. I have been dealing with her death in my own way, but I have tried to remain positive. I am in my last year of school, I have work (I'm a teacher), and I live on my own. Bills, tuition and work are just CRUSHING ME.

I got into a car accident today and now my car has to be repaired with cash I don't even have, cash I was saving towards this last year of school. I feel like no matter how many steps forward I make, I'm STILL trying to catch up. I feel like I'm drowning. Like I'm always drowning.

I just couldn't even bring myself to get out of my car. I know everyone has their struggles, I know everyone has had tough times. Honestly, I just need to hear some struggle stories. I need to hear how you/someone you know was down and how they motivated themselves to get back up.

Please, feel free to share. Knowing life is hard and stressful is a given, ACCEPTING that it is seems to be another story altogether.

Just keep taking those steps forward. Don't give up and all of that good stuff

 

[Remote]

Keep your head up.

Sorry about your sister.
Seek help if you need it. Professionals, strangers, friends...whatever.

You gotta have an outlet for stress or it can get really bad.

If you have the time, find a way to channel your stress and frustrations. Exercise, reading, long walks, music...anything.

 

[jeh]

SIGH.

I've been sitting in my driveway crying in my car like the world's biggest wuss feeling down on myself.

The past year has just been ridiculously rough. Though life has always been tough, I feel like lately I've been feeling defeated.
I grew up in the foster system with my two sisters, one of my sisters passed away last year (which is basically half of the family I have). That threw me off more than anything. I have been dealing with her death in my own way, but I have tried to remain positive. I am in my last year of school, I have work (I'm a teacher), and I live on my own. Bills, tuition and work are just CRUSHING ME.

Rip to your sister. My condolences

I got into a car accident today and now my car has to be repaired with cash I don't even have, cash I was saving towards this last year of school. I feel like no matter how many steps forward I make, I'm STILL trying to catch up. I feel like I'm drowning. Like I'm always drowning.

I feel the same way.

I just couldn't even bring myself to get out of my car. I know everyone has their struggles, I know everyone has had tough times. Honestly, I just need to hear some struggle stories. I need to hear how you/someone you know was down and how they motivated themselves to get back up.

Please, feel free to share. Knowing life is hard and stressful is a given, ACCEPTING that it is seems to be another story altogether.

Sorry to hear you had a bad day today, when times get hard don't give up. Once again my condolences on your lost of your sister.

I have a few. On Christmas day, my brother was hit by a car while trying to ride his bike. I watched him get hit and the car kept going. He had to get a rod in his leg, and had a walker for a few months. He went on to play football and basketball. Now he works at a car dealership.


Let's see, in APG. During our PT test I maxed out on pushups and my 2 mile run. But got a standard score for sit ups. Which, I couldn't get my PT patch. Honestly I was trying to impress a woman there(who ended up being my fiancee) and was glad to be round women since my basic was in Ft Knox. I graduated at the top of my class. But every time I look at old photos, certificates, medals, so on and so forth, I really lol because I could have got the patch. But I got the girl in the end.


Back before hurricane Katrina, my fiancee was planning to move to Atlanta..then we were going to get married live happier ever after.

Then hurricane Katrina happened, and now she's dead. Probably the only woman that knew me. And that understood me front and back.
I moved on, which I thought and felt was impossible. But I did.

I once won $500, but threw away the lottery ticket. Years later, I bought the same scratch off out the same store and won $500. Now, anytime I win, I cash out pronto lol.

 

[bcrusaderw]

Rip to your sister. My condolences


I feel the same way.



Sorry to hear you had a bad day today, when times get hard don't give up. Once again my condolences on your lost of your sister.

I have a few. On Christmas day, my brother was hit by a car while trying to ride his bike. I watched him get hit and the car kept going. He had to get a rod in his leg, and had a walker for a few months. He went on to play football and basketball. Now he works at a car dealership.


Let's see, in APG. During our PT test I maxed out on pushups and my 2 mile run. But got a standard score for sit ups. Which, I couldn't get my PT patch. Honestly I was trying to impress a woman there(who ended up being my fiancee) and was glad to be round women since my basic was in Ft Knox. I graduated at the top of my class. But every time I look at old photos, certificates, medals, so on and so forth, I really lol because I could have got the patch. But I got the girl in the end.


Back before hurricane Katrina, my fiancee was planning to move to Atlanta..then we were going to get married live happier ever after.

Then hurricane Katrina happened, and now she's dead. Probably the only woman that knew me. And that understood me front and back.
I moved on, which I thought and felt was impossible. But I did.

I once won $500, but threw away the lottery ticket. Years later, I bought the same scratch off out the same store and won $500. Now, anytime I win, I cash out pronto lol.

 

[ellessij]

Rip to your sister. My condolences


I feel the same way.



Sorry to hear you had a bad day today, when times get hard don't give up. Once again my condolences on your lost of your sister.

I have a few. On Christmas day, my brother was hit by a car while trying to ride his bike. I watched him get hit and the car kept going. He had to get a rod in his leg, and had a walker for a few months. He went on to play football and basketball. Now he works at a car dealership.


Let's see, in APG. During our PT test I maxed out on pushups and my 2 mile run. But got a standard score for sit ups. Which, I couldn't get my PT patch. Honestly I was trying to impress a woman there(who ended up being my fiancee) and was glad to be round women since my basic was in Ft Knox. I graduated at the top of my class. But every time I look at old photos, certificates, medals, so on and so forth, I really lol because I could have got the patch. But I got the girl in the end.


Back before hurricane Katrina, my fiancee was planning to move to Atlanta..then we were going to get married live happier ever after.

Then hurricane Katrina happened, and now she's dead. Probably the only woman that knew me. And that understood me front and back.
I moved on, which I thought and felt was impossible. But I did.

I once won $500, but threw away the lottery ticket. Years later, I bought the same scratch off out the same store and won $500. Now, anytime I win, I cash out pronto lol.

I really appreciate your response So sorry to hear about your fiancee. What did you do to help you get over that? How long did it take? I know everyone says that people grieve differently, but this is never ending.

 

[ellessij]

Keep your head up.

Sorry about your sister.
Seek help if you need it. Professionals, strangers, friends...whatever.

You gotta have an outlet for stress or it can get really bad.

If you have the time, find a way to channel your stress and frustrations. Exercise, reading, long walks, music...anything.

I used to blog, it did help, maybe I'll get back to that. Thanks

 

[jeh]

I really appreciate your response So sorry to hear about your fiancee. What did you do to help you get over that? How long did it take? I know everyone says that people grieve differently, but this is never ending.

You're welcome, and yeah it was very hard to get over her death. I got over her dying by breathing and taking massage therapy classes. I had to get my mind and body back in the right frame of mind in order to keep my sanity. I take it one day at a time.

It took me a couple years of mourning to get over the thought that she's gone and not coming back. But, whenever the smell of certain foods or the smell of a certain fragrance, or certain scenes in movies or a certain verse in a song. Just the lil things that I see and hear and smell reminds me of her you know and it's a pleasant memory. I remember the good times, cause I cried and made it thru the sad times.

 

[Spike Tarantino]

@Jisselle, Sometimes, everything hits you at once and you're overwhelmed, but it's OK because that shyt is human and healthy. Anyone going through your type of adversity would be weepy, so I hope you don't feel as though you're weak or blowing things out of proportions. You have my sincerest condolences for your loss, and I honestly hope you're taking time to grieve and have someone to talk to.

I am so proud of you for wanting to finish your education and making it out of a system that has many flaws and often harms those it is designed to help (Foster Care).

Take Inventory of Your Dopeness:

1. You made it out of a shytty sytem alive.
2. You have goals that you can and will attain.
3. You remain funtional while dealing with intense grief.
4. You have the mental capacity to know you should remain positive and seek support. Self pity kills more people than we realize, you are a beast outchea.
5. You were adorable as a baby.

You will win, because you are wonderful and capable.

 

[Spike Tarantino]

My Skruggle in the Past Year :

• A close cousin was shot and killed, today is actually the year anniversary.
• My Sister's BF was shot and subsequently died in a bar fight about week before Christmas 2014
• My Ex fractured my hip (pushed me down), didn't realize until a couple months later in March 2015.
• Fled the apt me and the ex shared when he left for an overnight music festival. I had no money, nowhere to go, and a fractured hip that had me walking with a limp.
• I didn't give a fucc. I had 2 weeks until I graduated with my Bachelor's. Being homeless, injured and depressed wasn't reason enough for me to miss graduation. I'd already bought my shoes
• Day after my graduation, I packed a uhual, hitched my car up and paid a nikka to go with me to retrieve my furniture from my apt. He wasn't about to keep my Ikea bed
• I drove across the country alone to get to my hometown. I had never done anything like that in my life, but I had no choice.
• I was supposed to stay in my families house while they were away. My mom hid the key's to the house I grew up in and wouldn't tell anyone where they were because I forgot to call her on Mother's day....while I'm driving across the country....alone....with a fractured hip....fleeing domestic violence.
• Ended up losing my temper with her bullshyt and cussed my own mother until she cried. I still ain't sorry
• Arrived in my hometown, got a quick job get me on my feet in less thsn 2 weeks
• Found my apt in less than 30 days
• Got a repo note for my precious car in the mail
• Called my credit union and told them my circumstances were extenuating as FUCCThey told me, and this is a direct quote, "You need to get off the phone with me and figure out where to get the money, or we're taking the car"

Soooo..that's what I've been going through. However:

-I now work with an organization that works directly in my degree field, starting low on the totem pole but makin more than minimum wage, plotting on their opening positions

-I have a bigger apt than I had with the abusive ex, and a better studio space

-Randomly started a side hustle helping people with their resumes. I get a new referral every week off my superior professionalism and formatting

My car that was about to get snatched?

Loan paid out COMPLETELY and title is in the mail I'm saving for my next car now. I'm buying it outright, I learned my lesson Ain't nobody disrespecting me that cold again

 

[Dwolf]

My Skruggle in the Past Year :

• A close cousin was shot and killed, today is actually the year anniversary.
• My Sister's BF was shot and subsequently died in a bar fight about week before Christmas 2014
• My Ex fractured my hip (pushed me down), didn't realize until a couple months later in March 2015.
• Fled the apt me and the ex shared when he left for an overnight music festival. I had no money, nowhere to go, and a fractured hip that had me walking with a limp.
• I didn't give a fucc. I had 2 weeks until I graduated with my Bachelor's. Being homeless, injured and depressed wasn't reason enough for me to miss graduation. I'd already bought my shoes
• Day after my graduation, I packed a uhual, hitched my car up and paid a nikka to go with me to retrieve my furniture from my apt. He wasn't about to keep my Ikea bed
• I drove across the country alone to get to my hometown. I had never done anything like that in my life, but I had no choice.
• I was supposed to stay in my families house while they were away. My mom hid the key's to the house I grew up in and wouldn't tell anyone where they were because I forgot to call her on Mother's day....while I'm driving across the country....alone....with a fractured hip....fleeing domestic violence.
• Ended up losing my temper with her bullshyt and cussed my own mother until she cried. I still ain't sorry
• Arrived in my hometown, got a quick job get me on my feet in less thsn 2 weeks
• Found my apt in less than 30 days
• Got a repo note for my precious car in the mail
• Called my credit union and told them my circumstances were extenuating as FUCCThey told me, and this is a direct quote, "You need to get off the phone with me and figure out where to get the money, or we're taking the car"

Soooo..that's what I've been going through. However:

-I now work with an organization that works directly in my degree field, starting low on the totem pole but makin more than minimum wage, plotting on their opening positions

-I have a bigger apt than I had with the abusive ex, and a better studio space

-Randomly started a side hustle helping people with their resumes. I get a new referral every week off my superior professionalism and formatting

My car that was about to get snatched?

Loan paid out COMPLETELY and title is in the mail I'm saving for my next car now. I'm buying it outright, I learned my lesson Ain't nobody disrespecting me that cold again

I would consider paying to see this movie.

 

[Spike Tarantino]

I would consider paying to see this movie.

The coli has the collective talent to make it happen.

Throw me a executive producer credit and take all the creative liberties you want brehs/brehettes

 

[Dwolf]

The coli has the collective talent to make it happen.

Throw me a executive producer credit and take all the creative liberties you want brehs/brehettes

 

[Spike Tarantino]

They got the...heart and....the talent. That's....my......that's my coli...

 

[jeh]

They got the...heart and....the talent. That's....my......that's my coli...

Very nice.