An example of how your emotions stop you getting a real job and advancing yourself, you're intelligent enough to log on here everyday and have discussion you sure this ain't just 'laziness'
im unstable, mood swings, chronically depressed
idk how to explain its weird but its like i have an identity crisis. i keep searchin for who i am and switchin between state of minds if i can say that. but no matter how many epiphanies on myself i have i cant stay one way, always back to square one.
cause of that i feel empty a lot. one day ill have a certain personality and feel great and be super productive then one situation/event(or just time itself) will make me reconsider who i am and just drop my mood to zero. cuz of that i basically cant sustain relationships, whether with friends or family. i been felt suicidal.
idk if wut im experiencing is symptoms of my problem or my actual problem. ur prolly thinkin wtf and so am i. by myself im not able to link my symptoms to any particular known mental illness tho at one point i thought i had borderline personality disorder. i dont like blamin my issues for the position im in today but
. tbh i feel great right now and like i found a way out of it but its always like that
then it starts again
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