When me and my ex first started dating I was 25 and she was 23 and she always wanted marriage and kids and I never wanted that until now.
She told me the relationship was a mistake and so I broke up with her at beginning of the covid and she went home. Even though I did not want to break it off, but how could I recover from that as a man. She came back and we started talking again but she never expressed to me until recently that she was crying, sick wanting to kill me etc. And she said I never asked to be her man again when she came back. In our absence I smashed some hinge bytches and realized it's really not shyt out here man, she claimed she went on dates but never fukked anyone and they wasn't me.
I'm 28 now and a man on some sap can't see myself without her. Her line sister set her up on a blind date with this nikka and she been smitten ever since "I guess he paid for every meal and built her a desk one time and never complained" I'm like is that the only complaint? "oh no you just never wanted marriage and kids and now you want it" she called me Lawerence from Insecure. I went to Dubai and brought this girl back diamond earrings mind you and a silk scarf.
She claims the nikka has been waiting for years to date her and all this shyt and I never talked like his before. When she first told me she would continue dating this nikka, I was sick and distraught and still am. I lost 17 pounds, been in church, waiting for my insurance to kick in February. I have been real distraught about this shyt and I don't have any male role models or mentors to talk to about this that are mature enough except my friend who's 29 with a wife and kid and is super Christian and is a father who a pastor. All my close friends my age are big gmb and I thought the same, plus I never saw that work in my life but I want to change that.
Her" I'm just on Facebook and seeing people with kids and marriage and family" Me: Okay my Facebook will have mad baby showers but no marriage and free such and such.
She was saying she would call me when she wanted dikk but if they start fukking she's not mixing both of us. She been face timing me and shyt and she admitted they fukked, and that shyt felt like a nikka stabbed me in my balls man, but 2 weeks ago she called me and told me to come over, I stopped jerking off too and brought the rose toy and everything, went in on her shyt.
She admitted that was one of the best she's had but still say she don't wanna be with me right now
Then yesterday she said if he asks her to be his girl she's gonna say yes, but then saying I look good at the end of the call and saying she love me.
I think this nikka slightly makes more money and I been about that too, like I'm actively studying for sec +, I have no kids, I'm about to get my own place next year in NY, B.A. degree, but she looks at social media and sees shyt and feel like I should be ahead I guess. I'm literally like the savior of my family though, nobody else has even come close to this meanwhile she comes from 2 parent's both college grads.
Breh's Idek how to move forward with this shyt man, I linked with a hinge girl and I couldn't even get hard, for the first time in my life. fukked up about this, and been praying, talking to God, preacher and more positive people but I want her and want to get married and have kids. I know I gotta really level up but I dead can't even focus.
" which is kinda unnecessary effort when I might as well bag a girl already in the gym
