The wedding plans had to have been set in motion months ago. Her and her sisters SPRANG into action brehs and brehettes.
Before I could blink they had the reception hall picked out, band, colors, cake ordered, wedding gown, church rented out, limo, etc. . I was
. She must have had some marriage fund already in place. . Other than the rings I am dont think I paid for anything. .
The closer we got to the date the more nervous I got. With my first marriage there was no hesitation. . When there should have been. With this one I was scared as fukk. There was something I could not put my finger on. .
. I told my dad. He said. . Its just the wedding jitters son.
I love my dad. . But he has never given me good advice on women.
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Its the wedding day and I am so NERVOUS I wanted to throw up.
I kept telling myself that she has given me zero reason to trip and I am acting like a bytch for no reason.
Cant let my past experience hold me back from love. I knew instictively she was down for me. That was not the problem at all. I knew she would not rob me, or cheat, etc. . She did not run the streets. . She was a good girl.
So I stood in front of her crooked pastor and said I DO. As SOON as I said it I regretted it.
. But I SUCKED it up and chalked it up to having cold feet.
I looked at her and knew I loved her. I cared for her and decided I am going to give this my best shot. . . . . Now I had an idea that we should go to Jamaica or the Virgin Islands for our honeymoon. She was adamant about not going anywhere out of Jax ( first warning sign ) So we got a nice hotel in Jax Beach on the water for a week.
Our first night she looks at me like
. . I am ready to start this baby.
I was
. I told her lets wait on all that. . She was truly hurt. . I could see it but she tried to hide it. . I was being honest and was not exactly sure I was ready yet.
She told me well I did not take the pill sooooooooooooooooo. . ..
I was like. . No worries and pulled out a condom and she was