Jay wants to be successful and nothing will deter him from reaching it; ever since he was a kid sitting on the project benches, observing the dealers around him he knew he wanted to make it big.
As Jay revealed in
Decoded, the “Ennis” here is
Ennis Cosby, son of comedian Bill. When Hova was younger he would turn green from envy thinking that that kid had everything while he struggled every day.
However, despite his good fortune, Ennis was murdered in 1997 by the side of a Los Angeles freeway.
Ennis’s death…reminded us of life’s frailty even for people with money and status. Money can’t protect you from fate
Ennis was killed while changing his tire, which ties into the earlier line about “switching a spare”.