"Sometimes I was held down by the gravity of my pen (Pen)
Sometimes I was held down by the gravity of my sin (Sin)
Sometimes, like Santiago, at crucial points of my novel
My only logical option was to transform into the wind"
I love this section, shows the inner turmoil and pressure he may have been facing with that weight of expectation, metaphors nice. Held down by the
gravity of his pen, because he was so nice lyrically he wanted to make sure he delivered lyrically so it may have made him apprehensive to release a full project. Maybe he's a perfectionist, some genius' are that way. Some don't mind putting everything they do out, on the other hand some are very particular. So it's almost like his lyrical skill was a gift and a curse, a gift because he was blessed with it but a curse because he had that weight of expectation and anything even perceived as less would be met with condemnation or ridicule. I like how within just a line there's so much in it and how potent it is.
Then goes on to speak about his own imperfections and flaws so putting himself in the world like that may be a concern, it all adds to the understanding and paints a fuller more in depth picture. The Saniago reference is exceptional as it fits his story perfectly, its the perfect simile. Can also be related to people in all situations in life when they get too tough or rough, many have had points in life where you have to be ghost or absent like Jay Elec has, where you need to take a step back because it was getting too overwhelming. At some of those times it was only logical for him to do that cause it was getting too much for him for his own sanity and well being, at points where it could have benefited his career not to be. That's the perfect reference he used for that and the set up was dope too.