So... I been dealing with depression ever since I was 13 and it's been on and off ever since. One thing that definitely helped me at one point was moving to another city/state. Especially if where you're at is currently somewhere full of negativity and a past you're trying to forget or move passed.
2016 and 2017 were my worst years, especially after the passing of my closest friend who I'd be able to talk with about everything. Things will eventually get easier if you don't lose focus and do things like:
*Not show up to work
*Stop working and quit your job
*Showing up late to work
*Doing a poor job at work
Main thing you wanna do is not lose your job cuz that will make things 10x worse. That's the main thing you wanna focus on no matter how much you feel like not getting out of bed cuz having to search for a new job while being depressed will be an even bigger challenge than what you're going through now. If anything look for a new job while you're still working if you have to.
And lastly, unplug from media, period. In all reality we should only be focused on our local news and surroundings. Think about it... You might have been having a good day today, but then you turn on the news and hear about another mass shooting or a police officer killing an unarmed black man and now your whole day is ruined cuz it put you in a bad mood. shyt probably happened in a whole different state or country but here you are tripping about it. Why? Bad shyt happens everywhere, much worse and daily. You gonna trip over every death that happens every day? Of course not. So why worry about the ones the news decides to air? Can't do nothing about it. Can't control it. So why even entertain it? It's insanity to entertain the news every day especially when it's mostly negative and it doesn't necessarily effect you. The news will never get everything, so even the little that it does get, doesn't really matter since you'll never get the full grasp of everything that happened today or yesterday or tomorrow.
That's why I recently decided to stop following politics so much. All I can do is vote, but otherwise I have no real control over what happens in this country and etc. I'll just read a headline every now and again to stay updated, but I'm not sitting on YouTube or watching TV for details. So moral of the story is only focus on what you can control and what effects you.