is it me or after u turn 25 life gets real, I feel like Im losing my mind

[Field Marshall Bradley]

I'm sorry I didn't purposely ignore this post I just didn't see it.

I didn't get therapy or take any medication because of two reasons, we couldn't afford it (the co-pay was extremely expensive, and even though my moms worked three jobs she still couldn't afford it), and my mother was an extreme Orthodox Christian who wouldn't even let me take it because she was superstitious. I guess maybe she witnessed my father going through it and didn't want me to. I never got help and to be quite frank, I don't think I ever will because it costs too much. I'd probably take advantage of free resources but they're scarce. I kind of turned my obsession into schooling, I was a brilliant kid and my father reinforced the idea that school and extracurriculars were really important. As a kid, I extensively played the piano, I was a dancer, I played multiple instruments. So I carried that regimented structure that my father instilled in me from a young age and I applied myself a lot. I got into an Ivy, a full ride, and all of that. I graduated with a 4.0 a year early. Even when my Dad died though my Rasta Uncles were there to be a shoulder for me to cry on and for me to kind of have a male figure around. I'm really scatter brained though, when the ideation gets really bad I write about 100 pages worth of material a day. Like straight story lines and shyt. I think it may run in my family, from my Dad's side, they have hella mental illness (it makes sense though, the horrific stories of what they went through and considering my father went from a Civil Rights Activist to a Panther and a member of the BLM) and it'll only get worse as I age. My mind scares me. I'd rather just be done with life than have to deal with this for the rest of my life. And unfortunately in the black community, we carry a lot of the resentment and the broken spirits of our ancestors we express it in a stand offish typa way, and it's not a lot of people who are aware of just how important mental illness is.

Are you within a 300 mile radius of Birmingham, Al.......??

 

[Elle Driver]

Are you within a 300 mile radius of Birmingham, Al.......??

I think so.

 

[2Quik4UHoes]

Real shyt...

 

[Suicide King]

I refuse to be punching a clock at 50....I'm actually shooting for 44 tho

By 44, you shouldn't be dealing with the daily grind. You should be a manager in charge of other employees OR a professional who is given a lot of room to operate with plenty of leeway, not a low level subordinate who is a slave.

 

[Field Marshall Bradley]

By 44, you shouldn't be dealing with the daily grind. You should be a manager in charge of other employees OR a professional who is given a lot of room to operate plus leeway, not a low level subordinate.

If you say so man. But If I'm not mistaken I said I am trying to not punch a clock by that age bracket so I won't be working for anyone in that regard, whether its as a manager, CIO, or whatever....

Who wants to be in charge of other employees? That's even worse imo....Mid Management sucks

 

[Field Marshall Bradley]

I think so.

Thinking about you and one other female on this forum.....


its been plagueing my mind lately......

 

[swag johnson]

i'm only 21 and just got my own place. with work and school shyt is gettin skressful

 

[Dr. Acula]

I think of this way..

Think about how things were a long time ago, hell just 100 years ago. We always lived to work and hell our ancestors would be up at 5 AM - 11 PM and do it 7 days a week. Non-slaves were doing that shyt 7 days a week but at least got paid for it.

Relatively speaking, we have more leisure time than at any other point of history.

I feel your pain though. I've been on the same grind for the past 7 years.. and it gets even sadder because then just the more simple things in life are what you look forward to which means, you're getting old.
"oh man I can't wait until I can get home and drink a beer and watch jeopardy. OH BOY!"

 

[Desirous]

Everything got better after I turned 25. I stopped caring so much about insignificant shyt. My personality is more laid back as I get older. Felt a sense of independence because I was able to support myself...but I definitely wasn't where I wanted to be...now, 5 years later, I am. Hope things get better for you...maybe it's just a bump in the road....I had that happen also, just don't get discouraged.

 

[the bossman]

I'm still planning, sold off all my toys (performance cars/bikes), completely debt free just waiting on my lady to finish off paying her school loans. The dream lives it's just that it could have been so much different had I just stayed, my own gym breh, my own fitness gym I probably could have had 2 or 3 of them by now

We're thinking of Colombia, Brazil, DR or somewhere in Africa as well. I wanna wake up on a Sunday morning, throw on some Maroon 5 "sunday morning" and dance with my girl while we're wearing all white linen as the sea breeze hits us

the imagery . good luck breh I hope you can pull it off

 

[little4209]

Just turned 26 and I'm still asking myself, what do I want to be?

Last week, I had the same conversation with my dad at 18, about picking a career/job and sticking to it that I had last week.I just wanna be, I just wanna be sucessssfulll

 

[The_King_of_Everything]

For one MJ got his ass beat from the time he was a little boy by his pops. Money doesn't create mental illness breh, broke people kill themselves all the time.



This where you lose me breh, in some ways I feel like I am God. I'm the master of my own destiny so whether I become a failure or success, all I can do is look in the mirror.

you are a god

 

[↓R↑LYB]

you are a god

I'm the Ice King, God
The Black Christ, elegant stance
Clothes fit me like a crime boss, the medince man

 

[The_King_of_Everything]

I'm the Ice King, God
The Black Christ, elegant stance
Clothes fit me like a crime boss, the medince man

 

[Suicide King]

All this fast shiit and fly jewelry, now makes my eyes teary. (Is a nice sentiment for this thread.)