Some of you may already know of my relationship woes but dammit I need some excitement in my life.im about to be 23 feeling and living like an old ass lady whos best years are behind them.
i let this nikka suck the life outta me.ive been faithful the whole time we been together but that shyt aint got me nowhere.im still being treated like an option or sideline thot.i almost never ask the man for shyt,i got my own money,raising our son to my best abilities,cook and clean after a long busy day at work,give him sex whenever he wants,babysit his bad ass daughter all the time.im not out here always running the streets,partying,leaving my baby wit any n everybody.
Ive been to good to this man even with the basic lackluster sex,not eating my p*ssy right or at all(havent came from head in 3yrs,he dont even try)....not wanting to go out and do anything..dinner,movie..nothing.being stingy and tight with his money,getting attitudes if i do ask ..when i barely ask for anything.
The lack of communication and understanding creating unnecessary agruments all the time...physical violence
I feel as though he dont respect or value me as his woman.like im not good enough and hes said this a couple times.its crazy because i should feel like that because i do all the things a woman should do for their man,household and family but he treat me like hes settling and putting up with me.his personality aint shyt and hes always negative ass hell.if he dont have somebody on the side he sure as hell act like it but i swear i wouldn't give a fukk at this point. just give me more reason to do what i want to.im all for an open relationship now .do you and protect yourself
Ima go fukk my ex this weekend.he made me feel good in more ways than one.we have a bond and connection that i dont have with my man.they got completely opposite personality.thats why i still talk to him to this day.we dont have sex but them convos be everyrhing.i miss being to talk to my man about anything no matter what topic.i can be feeling so down and out and he'll make me feel better.that a$$hole will make me feel even worse
Dude is way to secretive and evasive.he not comfortable enough to talk about shyt.thats why we never got to know each other on a deeper level.i been knew we are not meant for each other but i keep tryna make it work.
I know this a trainwreck and im working on leaving for good but for now..i feel like i deserve to feel special.its my birthday and i havent had a good time in a long time and i know who will pull out all the stops to make sure i have a ball and its not the man who ive been faithful to all this time.im fina make him mines for the weekend and hes gonna give me everything i been missing
I need this yall.dont judge me
be that womans ex breh's 
i said the same bout outsouf nikkas
.i dont understand it not one bit.i dont understand myself
