shyt man I been been married for ten years. We been through ups and downs and had got to a point where a divorce/separation was imminent.
I go down to DC for a summer internship and I strike up a relationship. It gets to the point to where after watching a few episodes of Power and feeling guilty about the parallels to me and Ghosts family life that I told her about my situation.
Fast forward and I move back to where I am. I got hit with the "I missed my period" so a nikka starts sweating bullets. So I fast track my separation and by January, she is set up in Atlanta. Not divorced, but separated. I had done a good job of hiding my infidelilty until the night before she left. She saw a video of me eating my side chick out and then fukking her. fukked everything up
but I was surprised I had kept up the charade this long.
So she leaves, and I keep our daughter. I turned into a male thot. In a 6 month window, I had my DC side chick, an African lady, and like three exes texting me on the regular. I even hooked up with a woman from my academic department, and she moved in for a month, but that shyt turned out to be a disaster. It was good sex, but she wanted me to be a nikka that I am not.
I reconciled with my wife, and since she came back in July, all of these muhfukkas have been creating drama. In that time span, she had gotten pregnant, BUT that nikka threatened to kill her and her unborn, and I know people will criticize this decision, but I brought her back home because I hated seeing her being in a toxic situation, and I realized that I will only be comparing women to her for the rest of my life. I never see a future with these hoes, only the next fukk. I want to be a better man but these latest incidences have really made shyt rocky.
DC called my phone around 11 pm after I came back from a Pokemon n smoke walk, and my wife saw it. Long story short both of them went in, and side chick still wants to talk and my wife is mad, but I don't want to lose her so I know I gotta let side chick go. It's gonna fukk her up and she may only date white men after this, because no woman wants to be the other woman, but inevitably they become that. I don't think it's hit her yet, because she still thinks we are getting married one day.
My wife packed her bags but I know she ain't got nowhere to go. Which makes it even that much more sadder. The only way she will leave is if some simp comes and picks her up and even then sex will be obligatory and she already knows that since she is my child's mother, that will never be an option for her. I really want to keep her, I just know that I fukked up a lot over the years. She has too. But it's getting to the point where I see that she has invested her life in me and I keep on hurting her and it is taking a toll on me.
I just need to be a better man.
EDIT: My patna gave me the best advice, you can't give these women the whole dikk, that's how they get crazy. Can't fukk side chicks like you fukk your wife
wife has no job???
my plan of playing crazy work... now she back up north with her simp husband and now I can go fukk with other hoes
sorry to hear this breh, hopefully everything works out 
