Brehs....my depression is slowly creeping up on me

[aqualung]

I don't want another cycle. It's been so long

I can feel it though

Here comes the:

Social isolation
Low sex drive
Bad eating patterns
Being quiet
Hating myself
Listening to kid cudi
Painting my fingernails and toenails black
Distancing myself from family and friends....possibly my girl

The fugg? You sound unemployed, bro. No? You have work on Monday morning like the rest of us do?

Ok. Then attend chutch on Sunday. Enjoy game 5 Sunday night with friends. Refill your Lexapro Rx. I hope ya did your laundry and dry cleaning. Hit the gym sometime Sunday too (and every day next week).

Cuz you gotta grind all summer. Keep living and working and doing your life. fukk your feelings, ho.

Want a cool book rec? THWhite's "The Once and Future King."

 

[Buckeye Fever]

1st thing 1st drop the cudi

Neva dat

 

[blackslash]

Yall hating on Perpetual Beast and I may not fully agree with what he saying..

But he does make a few points

 

[Art Barr]

You, have to find.
What this one movie I was watching termed, your death star.
[I wanna say this was on that Star wars fan movie. Where their guy had cancer and wanted to see the last star wars with his friends before he died. I, wanna say capt Kirk shows up and this is his advice to them as the moral concept of the movie. Of which I still us as a poignant reminder. Plus it is funny as hell, and helps people who are depressed lol in a moment of help. I, know so cause I lol at the thought of how poignant it was. When, I heard that statement and how attached to my child hood it was. Plus, how fortifying it was to be taken back to that little boy seeing/experiencing the first great thing I saw in life. Depression is about getting back that feeling.
Or, establishing that feeling of self you had for no apparent reason.
Like you felt watching luke man an x wing and shoot down the death star]
Or some misadventure, or be thrust into a new situation.
Where you have to use that situation.
as the most fortifying moment in your life.
Where since you endured it.
You can apply that ability as your proof you can get through anything.

You more than likely have pts.
Smoke some weed, consistently and focus on who you had to create during your trying time.
The more you focus on who you are.
that is a creation of what you want and will it to be.
you will be that.

You are who you create.


Art Barr

Depression is an unsure feeling about issues in your past.
you felt you were inadequately prepared to handle.
Either through your own action.
Or being victimized by some event, person, thing.
Where you continue to refocus on that inability.
Till, it affects everything from your mental makeup.
to your physical ability to do anything.
You must get out and get a new fortifying experience by chance and sheer action.
Or, you need to create this experience, through your will and actions.
If you don't will yourself to a new process by your own creation.
From your own acts, you will always suffer from depression.
You, have to create a new foray.
That shows your new system you designed to handle situations.
Is well prepared to do, so in full wholeheartedly.


Art Barr

* has beat depression, years ago.

 

[NotaPAWG]

Op, I know exactly how you feel. And I know it's cliche as fukk. And you don't wanna hear it. I know I didn't when I was really depressed But it DOES get better. You just have to allow it to.

Back in July last year, up until that point. For a year I went through a cycle of depression (I have manic depression) and I wanted to mill myself. Barely left my room. Didn't talk to ANYone besides posting on here and felt worthless as fukk.

I moved to south Florida in October. And it's crazy as fukk looking back to how different I feel. But the thing is. All that has been my own hard work. The one thing j realized is that happiness or whatever your real inner objective (a positive objective) won't just fall in your lap. For so long I allowed myself to soak in social isolation and pitty just waiting for happiness instead of going out and doing things that make me happy.

Go to the gym! The gym had helped me more than any therapist. Explore places in your local area. Be outside. Get sun! Vitamin D really really has huge positive affects your mental state. Don't isolate your self, yes it feels good now but eventually it will become a comfort zone you hate but don't know how to escape. Becomes a love/hate relationship.

I hope things get better for you and you feel betYet. Misery isn't permanent unless you allow it to consume you instead of using it as a driving force to achieve better within yourself.

Find something you love. No matter what it is. Music, the gym, whatever and hold onto it and make it reason to continue each day and use it as motivation.

I'm not saying shyt gets easier. It doesn't. I still have days where I struggle . But it's no longer weeks and months. It doesn't get better. You just have to find coping mechanisms that helps to deal with it instead of wallowing in it and letting it consume you.

 

[Art Barr]

You will know you are not depressed anymore.
when, you can't really listen to your music you purposefully sought out to find.
When, and because you were depressed.

If you are feeling depressed.
After beating depression and feel you may become depressed.
Think of your lowest moment of depression and the song attached to it.
If you, feel you don't need to listen to said song.
Then, you can know you are not feeling depressed and it is just a swaying emotion.
Which will always occur because you were victimized by something, mental &/or physical.
You, will never get back your naivette and once you become settled in that reality and can nav without having to use crutches you used to battle depression.
Then, you know you are okay.
Like, if I have to listen to big long now.
Where I don't shut it off in the middle and have that thought that man, I don't need this level of healing.
Then, I am fine.
If it ever happens.
I need to listen to big long now.
Then, I happen to listen to it and it repeats.
Then, I start listening to some pantera.
Then, I know it is bad.
Now, I am at the point.
I don't listen to any of my depression era music.
Plus, it seems like the times have caught up with the feeling I had that most of the world was a complete pos.
So, now...
I don't feel like I am the only person.
recognizing the bullshyt way ahead of time and realizing the impending doom of it all.


Art Barr

 

[the cac mamba]

Money right
My girl money right
I'm out the projects for good
My crib straight,my car straight, my fam straight
Killing it at work and I'm only 26...I'm 10 years ahead if my time. I'll be bringing in over 120k by 30....VP status

shyt man...focus on this. you made it breh. you're a success you know how many people would kill for that resume

 

[DrX]

depression is a bytch....just keep grinding towards goals....and youll start getting some feel good moments

 

[Art Barr]

Also, the main reason why black men inhabit the street.
Is we endure so much mental anguish from situations in life.
That we anchor ourselves in hurt and anger and use the streets as a ground to re-establish what was lost.
Plus, achieve what we were told and felt to feel was unattainable.

For me, being a middle class kid from a two parent home.
I will admit.
That considering how angry I was at America, corporate America, and just what was supposed to this supposed great life.
That was oh so great to be an American.
That is why we as black men take to the street.
Even, past the money or survival.
It is an attack back at what attacked you.
Where you get to learn how to prepare your self.
for the next attack from some seen or unforeseen angle.
Then, see if your work in the streets, so to say is successful.
so, you never suffer bouts of depression and times where you value your self worth.
That is why you will meet a person who is street and say man,...
They such a high self confidence and self worth system.
Especially, someone who is a former jailed kingpin.
You, realize the beauty in all the ill and the purpose.
If you don't you just have not had that bout with life to challenge that.
So, you will be a victim to depression.
If, you don't go through some arduous situation and now have to really build a self.

I really don't think people become actualized or exist in their real self.
Until, they endure.
Unto, you endure or suffer to survive.
I don't think you are actually really alive, yet.
I don't wish for people to endure having their moral compass and naivette stripped from them.
Yet, I know people that endure it and comeback.
Are the best people, I have met in the world.

Art Barr

 

[Art Barr]

shyt man...focus on this. you made it breh. you're a success you know how many people would kill for that resume

Working a job is never going to be a pedestal to creating self worth.
As, your occupation really is not who you are.

you have to create who you are and if you don't.
Depression, will kill you.

You are who you create and your occupation is not you.
As you did not create your occupation and it was given to you.
So, self..can never be your occupation.
So, never build your self in your occupation.
You have to build a real you.
You learn you are not your occupation.
When, it is taken from you by ill means.

Which is why men get so depressed because you have to learn the life lesson.
That you or self is not your occupation

That is why women fail in most all relationships, as well.
As they base who they are on an occupation.
Which they did not create, and were given.
Which means it is not tangible to the human mind.
When properly evaluated and surveyed under duress.
Especially, when surveyed under duress and the occupation.
Or, a situation at said occupation.
Is made to have a feeling of unrest to strife.

You are who you create.
Do, you know who you are.
Who you have created?
Who, have you created?

These are the questions your actual self is asking in depression.
Sheerly, begging you to go out and create.
exactly what that feeling is saying for real, you are.
Go create you, that is how you beat depression.


Art Barr

YOU ARE, WHO YOU CREATE.

self is not some wandering mystic shadow fleeing from your every inquiry.
Self, is the person who you have created.
That has a strong enough will to create who you are.
Even, when other factors unbeknownst to you.
are trying to well you or self in a direction far from where you want to be.
Or who you want to be.

 

[joeychizzle]

I hate people like you

Theres 12 year old girls being passed around in sex trafficking rings for a pack of smokes and people getting their hand cut off for stealing food to support to their family....every day...frequently...around the world...

Quit drinking and smoking, get your testosterone levels back to normal, go get a better job with the freedom to do so, and get busy....you spend way too much fukking time on the internet and are making the deceased that actually lived/appreciated spin in their graves

"depressed" people are the weakest breed of all....all comes down to unfulfilment of ego and not getting attention.foh and ill charge these negs im bout to get to the game

It ain't that simple. You can't just up and decide not to be depressed. It's brain activity and chemicals imbalances that trigger this. Just because you 1. Don't know shyt about how this works 2. Aren't going through what he is 3. Don't know what it's like, doesn't mean you can shyt on others who aren't as fortunate. Don't be fukkin ignant.

 

[Art Barr]

You have to actively try to beat depression. Unfortunately the people who get depressed are usually procrastinators or are not very active. You have to take it head on so it doesn't develop into something you can't control. Exercise, hobbies, new goals, things you can do. Unfortunately its hard to motivate someone who is already depressed to do those things.

People who are depressed are a victim.
To some monumental issue/event/person.
They were incapable of dealing with that shatters the mental refuge.
or bubble we use to protect our self.
It has nuffin to do with procrastination.
People who are depressed are victims.
That is why they call them victims of depression.
They need aid in gathering the knowledge.
to I'd how or why they got to that state.
Then, they have to develop a mental system to deal with the auxiliary issues.
While, under the surface the body repairs itself, in a system if recovery
To then in the future implement a new fortified system.
That was in work heavily under surface.
that will make itself aware when it has fully developed.
From pts from the event that cause the victim to be depressed.
Basically, people going through shyt is why people are depressed.
When, you get a number of life experiences and have a system to work to deal.
You won't be depressed when hit with usual issues that can cause depression.
As, you already are fortified against issues that can damage your id.


Art Barr

Depression, is a state of inadequacy to deal.
So, you have to deconstruct those states of inadequacy and fortify them.
So, they are never places/points of inadequacy any longer.

 

[Sad Bunny]

shyt man...focus on this. you made it breh. you're a success you know how many people would kill for that resume

I know and I actually went to my gmoms on Friday and realize how bad it is.

They don't even got AC bro...

I offered to buy ACs but she declined because it costs too much.

I really realized I'm straight

Took off tomorrow to get car work done and I'm up playing the witcher now

 

[Sad Bunny]

The fugg? You sound unemployed, bro. No? You have work on Monday morning like the rest of us do?

Ok. Then attend chutch on Sunday. Enjoy game 5 Sunday night with friends. Refill your Lexapro Rx. I hope ya did your laundry and dry cleaning. Hit the gym sometime Sunday too (and every day next week).

Cuz you gotta grind all summer. Keep living and working and doing your life. fukk your feelings, ho.

Want a cool book rec? THWhite's "The Once and Future King."

I work 5 days a week 8 hours

 

[Sauce Dab]

Good luck man I hate to see anyone depressed. Start that running and good eating habits and hopefully things turn around for you