A white boys life with drugs and why the system doesn't work

[Truth200]

@toomanydoses people like you should be leading the charge against the war on drugs.

Your life experiences and knowledge are valuable to others which gives you a purpose in life going forward.

 

[toomanydoses]

I appreciate that man. On the street its one thing to talk openly about drug use but its hard talking to "straight" people who have no idea about use. I mean I admit to crack use IRL not just anonymously online. You can imagine the looks I get, I'm a normal white kid with college education up until that moment. Nobody can get passed it, not like smoking weed while in collage where even presidents laugh it off.

I wish there was a way I could reach more people because I have no problem talking about drugs and their use in an educated fashion. I just feel to alot of people that's scary because it shifts the way they look at hard drugs but more specifically the people that use them. I'm not the typical "crack head" but I've been one. Still a junkie though I can afford it so its not my life and to face me and not a homeless man who fits the image is a sight white America is afraid to see. Just my opinion again.

Again I appreciate that compliment, I posted this on here as a way to open more eyes as this is a place where admitting to crack use wouldn't be the best way to get a positive reputation but I know I'm articulate and knowledgeable so to try me you're gonna have to go above and beyond.

@toomanydoses people like you should be leading the charge against the war on drugs.

Your life experiences and knowledge are valuable to others which gives you a purpose in life going forward.

 

[toomanydoses]

You said




Like who?

I've done drugs with police officers, attorneys, and a traffic judge as far as movie scene type shyt goes. The first time I shot up was with a ER doctor who showed me how (Shands Hospital UF one of the top 100 hospitals in America) to and his wife was a police officer we all shot a speedball that I provided the dope for. That was my first experience with injection and it only got weirder. From there as the ppl you meet get to two extremes with use like that. Either you're at the end of the road and doing it because you can't get off any other way or you're rich enough to use that hard and still live a life.

The most money I've ever seen at one time was 4.8 million that was a gay Puerto Rican with a mohawk and he was wearing a see thru shirt when he decided I shouldn't have seen that money (walked into a hall closet instead of the bathroom on accident) when he pulled a gun on me. Thank god he was high and forgot it wasn't loaded. I know it was 4.8 cause after I was forcibly searched (yeah I know it sounds bad) and it was discovered I wasnt a thief he told me how much was really there.

Stories like that is what I meant like whi gets a gun pulled on them by a gay Rican with a mohawk? MY dumbass. I'll think of some more stupid situations I had with odd characters

 

[SemiEnlightenedBum]

i'm a lazy typer but thy should type out a mini auto bio,especially for thee few ahki's still left from the dayze who knew thee for being een more then thy am now,used to type mini dissertations on spirituality,entheogens,drugs,gnosticism,philosophy,meditation,and basically the integration(we on our last incarnation for this Yuga/Epoch/Archetype Life)of all our past incarnations as we breakaway from this world/level of dimension as a whole...in'shallah

have a slightly different angle/stance cause entheogens/d'rugs basically saved thy organic life&opened thy ajna/right brain to what i've always kind of "sensed" twas thy calling/mission for this cycle,but twas too traumatized by familia/the hood/being an empath in a sociopath's dream scape,and in thy earlier years twas just focused on leaving the hood but fell back like a shooting star,that wasn't thy mission and being a cac and somehow inherently understanding how racist/prejudiced the system twas from a young age after reading/re-reading The Autobiography Of Malcolm X(all praised due to El Hajj,one of thy earthly heroes,his born date the day before mine,Tauremini cusp)and having recurring dreams of being on a slave ship(had other recurring dreams as a youngsta as well)

taken basically every drug known to man now,go too hard with the less spiritual/destructive drugs now,but never as hard as TMD,not saying that in a judgmental sense at all,i'm just one of those stoic/composed cats on the surface,and thy HATE feeling TOO vulnerable(prolly the abuse as a kid/growing up in the jects),and i'm big physically so thy handle thy shyt better then most(and when thy don't i'm quite fine being a hermit/monk)and just meditating and letting any vulnerability/anger just ride out for the most,been going harder lately too cause now thy know the Earth as a whole is a False Flag/Shaytun's paradise/pair of dice and we have to undergo this last splash of supreme evil for Mother Aset/Huemanity to shake these parasite/tick bloodsucker ashkennazi/nazi colonialist evil regime,they control everything from the money system to ancient knowledge/artifacts/ to basically our whole knowledge/what passes for knowledge base these dayze,there's no quick Norton antivirus fixes anymore,let the end ride out,and ride out..

maybe thy just typed this cause tis the O'Sirius Lion of Zion ∞∞∞ gateway to infinity day,who knows..

anyhow,synchronicity is everything

 

[CHL]

i'm a lazy typer but thy should type out a mini auto bio,especially for thee few ahki's still left from the dayze who knew thee for being een more then thy am now,used to type mini dissertations on spirituality,entheogens,drugs,gnosticism,philosophy,meditation,and basically the integration(we on our last incarnation for this Yuga/Epoch/Archetype Life)of all our past incarnations as we breakaway from this world/level of dimension as a whole...in'shallah

have a slightly different angle/stance cause entheogens/d'rugs basically saved thy organic life&opened thy ajna/right brain to what i've always kind of "sensed" twas thy calling/mission for this cycle,but twas too traumatized by familia/the hood/being an empath in a sociopath's dream scape,and in thy earlier years twas just focused on leaving the hood but fell back like a shooting star,that wasn't thy mission and being a cac and somehow inherently understanding how racist/prejudiced the system twas from a young age after reading/re-reading The Autobiography Of Malcolm X(all praised due to El Hajj,one of thy earthly heroes,his born date the day before mine,Tauremini cusp)and having recurring dreams of being on a slave ship(had other recurring dreams as a youngsta as well)

taken basically every drug known to man now,go too hard with the less spiritual/destructive drugs now,but never as hard as TMD,not saying that in a judgmental sense at all,i'm just one of those stoic/composed cats on the surface,and thy HATE feeling TOO vulnerable(prolly the abuse as a kid/growing up in the jects),and i'm big physically so thy handle thy shyt better then most(and when thy don't i'm quite fine being a hermit/monk)and just meditating and letting any vulnerability/anger just ride out for the most,been going harder lately too cause now thy know the Earth as a whole is a False Flag/Shaytun's paradise/pair of dice and we have to undergo this last splash of supreme evil for Mother Aset/Huemanity to shake these parasite/tick bloodsucker ashkennazi/nazi colonialist evil regime,they control everything from the money system to ancient knowledge/artifacts/ to basically our whole knowledge/what passes for knowledge base these dayze,there's no quick Norton antivirus fixes anymore,let the end ride out,and ride out..

maybe thy just typed this cause tis the O'Sirius Lion of Zion ∞∞∞ gateway to infinity day,who knows..

anyhow,synchronicity is everything

What?

 

[ill]

@Norton G.Nubuck did you used to post on a tiny start-up forum called AgileMC ? Probably 10-15 years back. We put out a couple mixtapes and had like 50 members lol

 

[SemiEnlightenedBum]

What?

not for the uninitiated Outback Jack..

@Norton G.Nubuck did you used to post on a tiny start-up forum called AgileMC ? Probably 10-15 years back. We put out a couple mixtapes and had like 50 members lol

thy don't know,did i..?

 

[toomanydoses]

Well my screen name is referring to acid. My friends would always say too many doses when someone would blank out or act stupid, I'm very familiar with hallucinogenics and can say the only religious type experiences I've had were while tripping so I get what you're saying by saying they saved your life.

My avi is about Cognitive Liberty which is a stance I firmly have. It's not about drugs as much as freedom, drugs are just the physical expression of it. That's why I'm a "psychonaut"
, also you're talking about the light side of drugs while I'm expressing the dark side.

i'm a lazy typer but thy should type out a mini auto bio,especially for thee few ahki's still left from the dayze who knew thee for being een more then thy am now,used to type mini dissertations on spirituality,entheogens,drugs,gnosticism,philosophy,meditation,and basically the integration(we on our last incarnation for this Yuga/Epoch/Archetype Life)of all our past incarnations as we breakaway from this world/level of dimension as a whole...in'shallah

have a slightly different angle/stance cause entheogens/d'rugs basically saved thy organic life&opened thy ajna/right brain to what i've always kind of "sensed" twas thy calling/mission for this cycle,but twas too traumatized by familia/the hood/being an empath in a sociopath's dream scape,and in thy earlier years twas just focused on leaving the hood but fell back like a shooting star,that wasn't thy mission and being a cac and somehow inherently understanding how racist/prejudiced the system twas from a young age after reading/re-reading The Autobiography Of Malcolm X(all praised due to El Hajj,one of thy earthly heroes,his born date the day before mine,Tauremini cusp)and having recurring dreams of being on a slave ship(had other recurring dreams as a youngsta as well)

taken basically every drug known to man now,go too hard with the less spiritual/destructive drugs now,but never as hard as TMD,not saying that in a judgmental sense at all,i'm just one of those stoic/composed cats on the surface,and thy HATE feeling TOO vulnerable(prolly the abuse as a kid/growing up in the jects),and i'm big physically so thy handle thy shyt better then most(and when thy don't i'm quite fine being a hermit/monk)and just meditating and letting any vulnerability/anger just ride out for the most,been going harder lately too cause now thy know the Earth as a whole is a False Flag/Shaytun's paradise/pair of dice and we have to undergo this last splash of supreme evil for Mother Aset/Huemanity to shake these parasite/tick bloodsucker ashkennazi/nazi colonialist evil regime,they control everything from the money system to ancient knowledge/artifacts/ to basically our whole knowledge/what passes for knowledge base these dayze,there's no quick Norton antivirus fixes anymore,let the end ride out,and ride out..

maybe thy just typed this cause tis the O'Sirius Lion of Zion ∞∞∞ gateway to infinity day,who knows..

anyhow,synchronicity is everything

 

[SemiEnlightenedBum]

Well my screen name is referring to acid. My friends would always say too many doses when someone would blank out or act stupid, I'm very familiar with hallucinogenics and can say the only religious type experiences I've had were while tripping so I get what you're saying by saying they saved your life.

My avi is about Cognitive Liberty which is a stance I firmly have. It's not about drugs as much as freedom, drugs are just the physical expression of it. That's why I'm a "psychonaut"
, also you're talking about the light side of drugs while I'm expressing the dark side.

oh,thy seen the grimy side,lived it,had familia members/friends die from it,tis twas prolly a mini miracle that thy waited as long as i did to try them..had dayze where thy got dopesick and shyt thyself/slept for 3 dayze,i'm an archangel,def no on no holy moly shyt..

and i'm with you on the cognitive liberty/psychonaut tip,the world would be a FAR better place if everyone tripped on a halluciogenic at least once in their life,booms,el,trees,various cactii,maully,etc ad nauseam would open portals of empathy/forgiveness that this world's never seen before,hell,een yowduh and poppies got entheogenic uses when used right,but everyone seems to like/accept this current paradigm,so it'll play out to its bitter&bloody end..they're an extension of us that we were built to partake in,tis not the entheogens/drugs that destroyed this country,tis the draconian laws surrounding them,exclusivity of their production&sales(aka the govt) and focus on punishment in prison/drug programs instead of actual rehabilitation&self actualization..

thought we lightweight discussed this in TLR one time..also,i'm sure someone knowledgeable as you prolly have but you ever try kratom..?

 

[toomanydoses]

I don't doubt most people have dealt with serious drug use by a close person to them. I wrote this because its a firsthand account of it, wasn't writing you off or your experiences. I appreciate you sharing them.
I still use opiates and those are the drugs I can't just stop and have been addicted to the longest sk yeah I know alot about kratom. What specifically are you wanting me to talk about regarding it?

Edit: meant to quote you @Norton G.Nubuck

 

[Dooby]

@toomanydoses people like you should be leading the charge against the war on drugs.

Your life experiences and knowledge are valuable to others which gives you a purpose in life going forward.

What cracks me up is he's acting like he moved a couple bags of weed here and there...NO. THIS GUY IS A REASON WHY THE WAR ON DRUGS NEEDS TO BE STRENGTHENED! How in the fukk are you moving enough shyt to make 2-3000 dollars a DAY? A DAY. This is no run of the mill dope dealer hanging at the corner store... he should be doing SERIOUS time if he is not misrepresenting or bullshytting. He shouldn't be given another chance. How the hell even with all this in his background, he has "a corporate job lined up." You're damn right the system doesn't work. This thread has me heated. I've gone the straight and narrow never been arrested a day in my life but yet you're doing better than me. Bullshyt.

 

[ZEB WALTON]

What cracks me up is he's acting like he moved a couple bags of weed here and there...NO. THIS GUY IS A REASON WHY THE WAR ON DRUGS NEEDS TO BE STRENGTHENED! How in the fukk are you moving enough shyt to make 2-3000 dollars a DAY? A DAY. This is no run of the mill dope dealer hanging at the corner store... he should be doing SERIOUS time if he is not misrepresenting or bullshytting. He shouldn't be given another chance. How the hell even with all this in his background, he has "a corporate job lined up." You're damn right the system doesn't work. This thread has me heated. I've gone the straight and narrow never been arrested a day in my life but yet you're doing better than me. Bullshyt.

a dope boy with 15 customers could make 2000 a day easy

 

[mortuus est]

People still used crack in the 2000's?

 

[rapbeats]

Racism is a subset of classism in the context of drug laws. There are more poor ppl than black ppl in America.
I'm was a poor white kid who was arrested on my 18th bday, where was my white privilege? I got fukked just like alot of minorities cause I'm poor.

Why would I lie about anything when I wrote one of the realest posts I've seen on here even though I knew I'd get clowned.

first off if this is true. then i feel for you as a person. but and its a big but. you said you got arrested at 18, where was your white privilege?

you threw it away multiple times as you were growing up. thats where it went. blacks dont have that ability. they mess up once and usually its a wrap for them even as children.

i think white people mix up the phrase white privilege with some idea of white people having real life super powers to protect themselves against real life situations. no one said that.

white people still have to work, to eat. if you dont make enough money you will still starve. white, black or green.

no amt of priv can stop that from happening to you.

So what is that privilege about? well for one. its more about obstacles that are strategically placed in front of blacks BY WHITES. in order to keep blacks from ever being able to run the same race. For fear that blacks on average will catch up to whites. if this happens then the privilege of average whites will actually disappear.

let me make it simpler for you.
Black guy is of average intelligence is applying for a job.
White guy of average intelligence is applying for the very same job.

The reason the white guy has privilege is because there are obstacles thrown in the black guys way to make it much harder for him to get that very same job you're about to receive. for instance, if he has a BLACK sounding name, he probably wont get that job. I he SOUNDS black over the phone, he probably wont get that interview. If he gets into the interview and they see him and he looks BLACK. he may not get a call back.

If you are white, and have a resume with a white name, or sound White over the phone, or look white in the interview. odds are(this has been statistically proven) you will end up getting the job.

the privilege is in the fact that if all things were equal the white guy would have to fight tooth and nail to get that job. but since all things are not equal he doesnt have to fight as hard(Thats the privilege).

and lets discuss white guys after they have felonies vs black guys without them. oh yeah my friend. its about race first, class 2nd.

...
Study: Black man and white felon – same chances for hire

To address these issues, I recently conducted a series of experiments investigating employment discrimination. In these experiments, which took place in Milwaukee and New York City, I hired young men to pose as job applicants, assigning them resumes with equal levels of education and experience, and sending them to apply for real entry-level job openings all over the city.

Team members also alternated presenting information about a fictitious criminal record (a drug felony), which they “fessed up to” on the application form. During nearly a year of fieldwork, teams of testers audited hundreds of employers, applying for a wide range of entry level jobs such as waiters, sales assistants, laborers, warehouse workers, couriers, and customer service representatives.

The results of these studies were startling. Among those with no criminal record, white applicants were more than twice as likely to receive a callback relative to equally qualified black applicants. Even more troubling, whites with a felony conviction fared just as well, if not better, than a black applicant with a clean background.

Racial disparities have been documented in many contexts, but here, comparing the two job applicants side by side, we are confronted with a troubling reality: Being black in America today is just about the same as having a felony conviction in terms of one’s chances of finding a job.

The young black men posing as job applicants in this study were bright college kids, models of discipline and hard work; and yet, even in this best case scenario, these applicants were routinely overlooked simply on the basis of the color of their skin. The results of this study suggest that black men must work at least twice as hard as equally qualified whites simply to overcome the stigma of their skin color.

So now can we be allies in the fight? Sure. but first things first. Be willing to give up your privilege to make things right even at your lower class level. and stop being so da.. racist(most of the fox news listeners are poor white folks). and this is not to say that others are not just as racist. they are. the just hide their overt cism a bit and use it in other ways.

 

[Bugatti Biceps]

You still got a better chance with your record getting hired than a black man with no record, so...

About how your white privileges don't exist.