A Story of Caution: From Fat to Fit to Fat to Fit

[The ADD]

Its been months since I was really active here and i feel its time to do some splainin

A year and a half ago i started something that i truly regret

I took a mild steroid for three months during the fall of 2013, i did all the right steps and protected myself with various things

however i took two other things that i should warn to never do: Clenbuterol and T3

im not so sure of the effect of clen but t3 almost wrecked me permanently. While on it everything was gravy. I gained 10 solid pounds with marginal fat gain. To put in perspective the change this shyt will do to you

I went from doing 3 x 5 weighted dips/pullups (45 plate) to 8x8 weighted dips/pullups :dro: i was doing layne nortons full routine without breaking a sweat. Gains ©

i felt unstoppable, i was banging more women in a short time frame than i had in basically years of adulthood(22 kills in 4 months

). Id be at parties and would routinely just get touched by women there. When youre on it you feel like a god(literally).

But the aftermath is what has fukked me. Strong eating habits of the past fell by the wayside as i gorged 5000 calories on the cycle. Once i came off it wasnt easy to just go back to eating "enough", furthermore I developed a bar habit that exacerbated my problems. Top it off with a new desk job and a crazy live in gf I had a recipe for failure.

So here I am, 185 lbs and wondering what happened well let me warn all of you. Do not do what i did, dont listen to people who question how big you are or how much you do of this and that. Strive to defeat your past self and thats it. I got greedy and Im paying the price, yet for what its worth this year hasnt been all bad. I got industrial certifications and passed my senior sequence exam so we're not complete shyt. But we're not immaculate either

this thread is my log, i will be back.

 

[semtex]

I can't imagine myself on that type of shyt

I would be on some Blanka from street fighter shyt. Then after the fact I'd prob kill myself cause I'm already a little off. I mainly keep it au naturale because I'm afraid of the psychological/emotional effects.

 

[MMS]

I can't imagine myself on that type of shyt

I would be on some Blanka from street fighter shyt. Then after the fact I'd prob kill myself cause I'm already a little off. I mainly keep it au naturale because I'm afraid of the psychological/emotional effects.

mentally i was just more aggressive, i can honestly say thats about it

it was the other two that had the real sides. i remember there was a day that my abdominal cramps were so bad i stopped mid walk to just sit down and try and relax. That was god awful, the shyt works for sure but in hindsight its not worth it

i have kept the gains tho

 

[The ADD]

I can't imagine myself on that type of shyt

I would be on some Blanka from street fighter shyt. Then after the fact I'd prob kill myself cause I'm already a little off. I mainly keep it au naturale because I'm afraid of the psychological/emotional effects.

Mainly?

 

[semtex]

Mainly?

yeah that's the scariest part. even scarier than the moobs and non-functioning testicles

 

[MMS]

weighed in at 184, first pound lost

will update progress pics the 15th of each month with body measurements

 

[The ADD]

weighed in at 184, first pound lost

will update progress pics the 15th of each month with body measurements

Do you have a # in mind?

 

[MMS]

Do you have a # in mind?

short term is 175

long term is 160

 

[Deafheaven]

I can't imagine myself on that type of shyt

I would be on some Blanka from street fighter shyt. Then after the fact I'd prob kill myself cause I'm already a little off. I mainly keep it au naturale because I'm afraid of the psychological/emotional effects.

It might sound funny but just some lil shyt like ECA had me having full blown anxiety, anger and suicidal thoughts on the regular...when that mikd brown verdict dropped I dead ass wanted to quit my job since its nothing but cacs and I was having murderous thoughts that whole night

I don't dispute the usefullness of auto fat loss but i'm completely natty from now on. My mind is way too fukked up to mess around with the psychological ramifications of drugs.

 

[semtex]

It might sound funny but just some lil shyt like ECA had me having full blown anxiety, anger and suicidal thoughts on the regular...when that mikd brown verdict dropped I dead ass wanted to quit my job since its nothing but cacs and I was having murderous thoughts that whole night

I don't dispute the usefullness of auto fat loss but i'm completely natty from now on. My mind is way too fukked up to mess around with the psychological ramifications of drugs.

Yeah I ain't touching none of that shyt. If I ever make a thread talkin bout I'm considering it yall talk me out of it

 

[Deafheaven]

Yeah I ain't touching none of that shyt. If I ever make a thread talkin bout I'm considering it yall talk me out of it

cuts come pretty easily on the shyt and you have a lot of energy most of the time. I'm one of those "thinkers" though that over analyzes everything and for the most part I keep my anxiety and depression in check by just being as narcisstic as possible but on that ECA it kind of destroyed my self image tbh. I'd fukked up with a bytch and feel like dying, eat like 100 calories more for a day and be pissed, couldn't even play games with nikkas cuz i would get so irritable. Like its works, but for people who have a lot of personal demons they keep in check normally its fukking scary. The anxiety pretty much breaks down your mental walls when its no one but yourself laying there in the dark. probably didn't help I started with the 3 a day dose cuz in my mind I was sure I could just brush off w/e bullshyt it does to me. welp



And I've done tonnnnssss of drugs and nothing left me feeling as hopeless as ECA but that could just be from a few months use. I'd pop lsd or something and trip every few months but I would imagine doing it daily would leave my mind in tatters.

 

[Deafheaven]

I will say doing ECA made me hate fat people even more tho

here I am at like 10-12% BF for all intents and purposes in better shape than 90% of this country and willing to fukk my mind up to look better and these slobs can't do something as simple as stop eating : hate hate hate hate

nvm the fact you still have to lift like you mean it on the shyt lol, not really shortcut at all

 

[The ADD]

Shyt just got real in here

 

[Deafheaven]

Shyt just got real in here

 

[semtex]

cuts come pretty easily on the shyt and you have a lot of energy most of the time. I'm one of those "thinkers" though that over analyzes everything and for the most part I keep my anxiety and depression in check by just being as narcisstic as possible but on that ECA it kind of destroyed my self image tbh. I'd fukked up with a bytch and feel like dying, eat like 100 calories more for a day and be pissed, couldn't even play games with nikkas cuz i would get so irritable. Like its works, but for people who have a lot of personal demons they keep in check normally its fukking scary. The anxiety pretty much breaks down your mental walls when its no one but yourself laying there in the dark. probably didn't help I started with the 3 a day dose cuz in my mind I was sure I could just brush off w/e bullshyt it does to me. welp



And I've done tonnnnssss of drugs and nothing left me feeling as hopeless as ECA but that could just be from a few months use. I'd pop lsd or something and trip every few months but I would imagine doing it daily would leave my mind in tatters.

That's exactly how I felt on low carb