Imagine going from a wimpy chemistry teacher, with cancer, to one of the biggest dealers in your area, making millions, having sex with hot women, buying houses, etc.
At first it was for survival, but like every game, the long you stay in it, the more you come to find two very twisted things about it....
The game is like the abyss, you stare at it and stares back at you, but its not so ambiguous, the game loves you, it needs you, you have fans now, the streets are buzzing with your name that is spoken in reverent tones or in terrified whispers. And who are you to deny greatness?