I was scamming HEAVY back in the day , anyway to cut a long story short i got caught up in a conspiracy type charge, they didnt catch me directly but they caught an associate and subsequently people around him got arrested .... he more or less snitched because till today a lot of shyt doesnt add up
anyway Im going to cut out a lot of details but at one point my lawyer tells me to put my affairs in order .... I was at the point where I had made enough money and I was just scamming because it was easy and because I had no plan B for what to do with my life
It wasnt even greed that kept me in that life, it wasnt even at that point I loved the buzz or lifestyle .... it was straight laziness to think of something else to do
And it was literally like day and night , one day I had a ton of money, range rover sport , the next I was on the verge of losing everything and facing jail
I was so pissed at myself because I had seen a lot of dudes smarter than me , who had been in the game longer than me, who had made more money than me go to jail ..... and I knew you cant be lucky forever and quite a few times I had asked myself why am I still involved with all this ... worst thing is I come from a well to do family and they had no idea what I was up to , apart from my mom who had suspicions
and i remember being home listening to music and the song came on and the second verse just mirrored how i was feeling
I'm here to tell nikkas it ain't all swell
There's heaven, then there's hell, nikkas
One day you're cruisin' in your 7
Next day you're sweatin', forgettin' your lies
Alibis ain't matchin' up, bullshyt catchin' up
Hit with the RICO, they repo your veh-i-cle
Everything was all good just a week ago
I remember the shyt like it was yesterday