I feel you breh. I had to leave my girl of 3.5 years this halloween. Earlier this year my dumbass ran to the coli making a thread about how she's a pathological liar yadda yadda ya "but I love her". All the brehs clowned me (and rightfully so, fukk was I sticking around for?) But in my head I refused to break up with her just because the coli said to so I stomached the pain.
Bad idea. That was over 6 months ago. I may not have been ALL the way over it by now, but I sure as shyt would feel a whole lot better than now. The difference between me and you is I am the one who left my girl but the point is you have to know what's best for you. That bytch wasn't a rider breh, charge her to the game and eat.
It's a little different for me because since I'm 27 and went through my first real breakup at 19 I know how this shyt go. It hurts like a motherfukker but you just gotta focus on the light at the end of the tunnel. YOU gotta walk towards the light though, cuz if you hide out in the tunnel feeling sorry for yourself you'll never get better.
Pm if need be breh, I'm here for you young bul