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I trained Sheng Long and Shonuff
I feel ya. I can relate to this. I remember those days well...a part of me misses them...but I'm better off now mentally and physically because of what I've learned and what I've been through.
I remember I was naive too...thinking that race didn't matter...was the token black guy...then around 2011 into 2012 I really started to become aware of race being in a predominantly white are still in college. I remember feelings of being depressed and paranoid. Hating myself somewhat...then I graduated and left Pittsburgh for New York and it changed me.
It wasn't until I came back to the coli from Sohh after not posting for ages that I really started to take in what people were saying and seeing those experiences people talked about in my own reality as a black person.
Life is different for me now. I'm out of college, been in the work force, and I'm 30 now. When I joined SOHH I was 22.
I guess this thread is indicative that some people don't want to grow up cause they're afraid.
I'm definitely better off knowing what I know...but yeah...you're right
Every "conscious" black person has had this experience, but I wouldn't take it back for a second. I now know who my enemy is. It's clear as day and I operate under that assumption. I stick with my own, live around my own, and work to make shyt better for black people exclusively. My next goal now is to build my company up and provide jobs for all my breh's out there, teach all of my employees about white supremacy and racism, and give a proceed of my profits back to the black community.
I'm not pro minority.
I'm not pro equality.
I'm 100% pro black.