Kids pay for their parents mistakes often and its natural. If your parents teach you to disobey God and to cater to demonic filth, you're going to pay for their mistake, friend. If your parent built an empire on satanic principles, you're going to pay for that, friend. Life is pain and sadly, thats how man learns so you trying to avoid pain and suffering is you expressing some desire you have to live in a fantasy realm. You better work with what we have here friend because the point of life is to prepare yourself for your meeting with God. Please get yourself together because it seems like you're becoming unhinged like battering rams and door frames and thats so demonic, friend.