Essential The Mental Health Thread

[Striving For Greatness]

Almost at the 3 month mark at my new job and I’m already thinking about creating an exit plan. The work is relatively easy but sometimes my managers have a shytty attitude and I don’t appreciate it at all

 

[semicko82]

I know this has been said before but stay off social media. shyt is depressing.

Yesterday, I was feeling a bit down and I looked at the instagram of a very minor celebrity (this person is a podcaster).

Anyway down the rabbit hole i go, I click on the people making the comments profiles and see their lives (and see how perfect they are living) and that shyt depressed the fukk out of me.

Then I realized people put the best parts of their lives on there.

Anyways, every day is a new slate, don't dwell on the past, focus on the present.

One step in front of the other.

Yup
Social media really questions what are you doing wrong in life?

 

[Yinny]

Yup
Social media really questions what are you doing wrong in life?

Spending too much time on social media

 

[semicko82]

Spending too much time on social media

What do you think the people who post on social media all the time are doing?

 

[semicko82]

Almost at the 3 month mark at my new job and I’m already thinking about creating an exit plan. The work is relatively easy but sometimes my managers have a shytty attitude and I don’t appreciate it at all

Is the money worth putting up with the bullshyt?

 

[Monsanto]

Relating to The Bell Jar again.

Need to book an appointment with my therapist.

 

[Canada Goose]

This fatigue is really getting to me, oversleeping, depressed, no energy to do anything. Just wanna lay in bed.


This past summer was rough due to the heat and humidity, so I thought the cold weather would make me feel better.... NOT


I WANT to do things, but I just be too tired and lack the motivation to do said things (hobbies, etc).


Most of my life has been and sometimes I just wanna eat a bullet. I have these thoughts regularly and I don't tell my therapist this cause she would just send me to the psych ward which was a miserable experience when I went there. I have no plans of actually killing myself, I have been having these thoughts for a good 10 years and haven't done it, and most likely never will. I constantly go over bad experiences in the past, situations I messed up in, etc.

 

[Mandarin Duck]

This fatigue is really getting to me, oversleeping, depressed, no energy to do anything. Just wanna lay in bed.


This past summer was rough due to the heat and humidity, so I thought the cold weather would make me feel better.... NOT


I WANT to do things, but I just be too tired and lack the motivation to do said things (hobbies, etc).


Most of my life has been and sometimes I just wanna eat a bullet. I have these thoughts regularly and I don't tell my therapist this cause she would just send me to the psych ward which was a miserable experience when I went there. I have no plans of actually killing myself, I have been having these thoughts for a good 10 years and haven't done it, and most likely never will. I constantly go over bad experiences in the past, situations I messed up in, etc.

I really wish I could stop doing this.

How would you consider your self-esteem level?

I ask because I feel like that has a lot to do with why I do that to myself.

Constantly telling myself I'm worthless and I should die.

 

[Canada Goose]

I really wish I could stop doing this.

How would you consider your self-esteem level?

I ask because I feel like that has a lot to do with why I do that to myself.

Constantly telling myself I'm worthless and I should die.

My self-esteem is low, don't have much positive stuff going on to build it up.

 

[Canada Goose]

Today I was jammin' to some music in my headphones at the waterfront park during the sunset this afternoon....


Teenage or early 20s boy and girl approach me, I give the guy a fistbump and take my headphones off. Girl asks me how old I am (I say 30 which is the truth) guy says you look 20 then they tell me they are new to NY and their trying to make friends, awkward silence and then they walk off being silly. Totally botched that situation After they left I thought I should have asked them where they came from to continue the convo Stuff like that stays happening to me when people approach me unexpectedly and I botch the interaction because of anxiety I had so many negative interactions that when I have a positive one IDK what to do

 

[RealCrownHeights]

Think I'm going to disappear from social media too. I see some good tech-related stuff but Nah. I have a new job and my insurance kicks in February so I have to wait till then to see a therapist. Tried therapy at 14, 22, and now again at 28.

I have anxiety to the point I have hyperhidrosis despite me being perfectly healthy physically and in shape according to doctors and being depressed suicidal for half my life. I'm trying to study for Sec + and certs but my mind just wanders and I legit can't focus sometimes.

My on and off girl has decided to move on also and that also hit me very hard.

My friends have me back in the church and in bible study and that helps a bit but sometimes they can be very pushy with it and want me to get baptized like next week like I still like EST Gee and sex and I sin idk if I'm ready for that commitment. I do pray though.

Lost a lot of weight last month due to me being severely depressed, everyone was saying I looked sick, started eating like a keto diet and working out and trying BJJ out, and it's not bad but who knows if they will close it soon with Omicron.

Back on hinge, where I've had success sexually but I know that's just a dopamine hit. like I have a date tonight but as stated before, these bytches are as much of a mental case as I am. Ghosting then reappearing, 4 animals in the crib, etc. With my ex I know I want marriage and kids but I know I need to work on myself.

Thought about pulling the trigger a couple of times, even went to the ward once and it was just a weird experience and I thought they were going to shock therapy me. Really the only reason I have not done it yet is because of my mother and I'm a coward.

 

[Dog Based Gremlin]

• Cant see my kid for the holiday
• Baby mama a whole bytch
  
• Gained alot of the weight i lost this summer back
• Back to drinking heavily
• Family hates me and gossip behind my back often
  
• Lost social circle

Wake up each morning with this weird feeling like "damn i aint die today, why not?"

 

[CreepyMcCreeperson]

My therapist told me the same thing. She goes to a therapist and suffered from depression too.

If we get depressed seeing and reading things online, I’d imagine listening to people’s problems, and realizing how messed up people are gets to you. And they deal with people from all walks of life, in various positions of authority, knowing all the dysfunction in those people’s minds.

 

[CreepyMcCreeperson]

My life has drastically changed from where I was last year. But I think a big part of me is afraid of losing everything I’ve acquired. I need to work on believing I deserve it, and stop expecting everything to come crashing down.

 

[semicko82]

• Cant see my kid for the holiday
• Baby mama a whole bytch
  
• Gained alot of the weight i lost this summer back
• Back to drinking heavily
• Family hates me and gossip behind my back often
  
• Lost social circle

Wake up each morning with this weird feeling like "damn i aint die today, why not?"

You might need to cut off your family if they're gossiping about you