Weird weekend. Went to visit my friend at his university, and I just got back home 20 minutes ago.
We chilled, the first night there a bouncer pushes him after he attempted to hand his girl his coat and he's like wtf so the bouncers automatically tell him to get out and one says "thanks for the money" all night my friend was heated until the point of tears a few moments later after trying to approach the bouncer again, I held him back though, he was really drunk I think. We went back to another friends house and played Madden. Some dude was calling me the Zen master, shyt had me tripping out but also happy although I'd like to not let other people's comments make me happy.
The next day we went out and he studied while I ate breakfast and then met up with him and his study buddy. We grabbed something to eat, headed back to his apartment. I felt bad because we come home and his roommate another friend is all hungry and eyeing our food strong to the point to where I'm offering food. Maybe it was us feeling guilty but he had said he was broke and wanted real food. Anyway, I ended up breaking his laptop lol, spilled water on it then turned it off and it never turned on again. He didn't know so I feel guilty bit it was an accident.
Being on this trip showed me that I'm not ready for school and I'm not doing too bad in life, but that doesn't mean that I'm not focused on progression. Anyway, on my ride home (on a plane) I spoke with a man from the forestry, we had a cool convo about volcanoes and nature and earth as a living organism.
Finally I reach home and my brother told me that my aunt is in ICU and flat lined yesterday morning. I see so many things in this world that I don't like and the only advice to myself is to continue working on yourself and to keep your mind focused and at peace and to make those Europe plans.