My life is so weird sometimes.
I sabotage myself, but unconsciously. Why? There has to be something bigger coming along, I just don't know it. Perhaps its not coming along, perhaps its waiting for me to come along.
I just don't know what it is, but being idle because of that fuss put up at work has gotten me a bit lost inside. Mainly because my days aren't preoccupied with work, now I have freedom to do as I please, but am pleased with doing almost nothing. Maybe its because without work I never learned how to occupy my time. Other than reading and taking care of miniscule things that need attention.
In regards to the fuss at work. I tapped the top of a girls ear jokingly (and lightly), after it had been pierced. While I apologized and sincerely had no intentions of truly harming her, I realize that whether she made it a big deal or not, my modus operandi (MO) isn't to upset or harm people, its to protect and make them happy.
Oh well