Essential The Locker Room's Random Thoughts
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decided to let negative comments thru on my youtube
escapism to run from life.
thats sorta how i feel. i should feel blessed, and grateful. i dont own my own house, but i do own my car, and i live with the girl i love and her dog and our 2 cats. man i even got a medical marijuana card. i have everything i need to make music in my spare time, but im too depressed to sit down and come up with something. any time i do, i just end up deleting the project folder.I live a boring and uneventful life. It could be worse but shyt isnt all sunshine and roses. Each year that i get older, the morei feel than being at peace. I really dont know how ive been able to get to this point without having a moment of having a nervous breakdown or crashing out. Its like Im holding it all in which i personally think is having a negative effect on my health. All that anger, depression, internal pain and shyt for all these years and decades of that shyt, i have to watch my health
But the flipside of that is if i do crash out, flip out, or just implode then i believe that theres some people who are waiting for that moment to go "we told you so", ready to celebrate and applaud for my downfall and/or demise-death, want to see me incarcerated, and etc etc.
i only need to work around 35 hours a week combined with my side gig (computer and musical instrument repair) to cover our bills. im not rolling in money or anything, but im good. i always have at least $100 in my pocket. i honestly have no right to complain.
but it just feels so empty. like i was born too late to enjoy the world, you know? theres SO MANY people on the planet right now that you really cant think of many things to do that cant be googled. its frustrating. everything just feels so damn draining that by the time i get home at night i just wanna sip a beer, play some nintendo, and go to sleep.
i dont really have any advice for you, but i thought i'd let you know that youre not alone out there. people fukking suck man.
Sorry to hear your depressed and feeling down too. Have you always felt like that or is it more recent? You ever try to reach out to a therapist or mental health counselor? Would recommend it.
Honestly, youre doing better than me in life in term of having a life. Im actually trying not to get bitter or angry thinking about "enjoying the world" so i try to avoid people so i dont have to have conversations delving into my life. According to some people, i should be content with this but honestly, i want more. Ive been more or less humbled by reality having to deal with me and the world that i live in. Had high hopes 20 years ago,
18 to 38. But thats why that whole birth card shyt really is making me just think. Always having a tower moment. shyt fukking sucks. But it seems that i literally have to struggle simply to achieve shyt even to just finish reading books, having to live independently and other shyt but of course, nobody gets it. They as in other people say that im doing well because im level 1 autistic with a job and can drive. im not happy with just that. I havent been living life much. I dont want to live a crazy life but i always wanted to be active in terms of doing something meaningful and productive. I dont know how to as a lot of shyt i do by myself and literally am just figuring shyt out. Im not a fan of people because than i start getting into my feelings reflecting on myself.
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i just feel disappointed in people. im not naive enough to think racism in america is over, but it does seem like we got along better 20 years ago.Sorry to hear your depressed and feeling down too. Have you always felt like that or is it more recent? You ever try to reach out to a therapist or mental health counselor? Would recommend it.
Honestly, youre doing better than me in life in term of having a life. Im actually trying not to get bitter or angry thinking about "enjoying the world" so i try to avoid people so i dont have to have conversations delving into my life. Had high hopes 20 years ago,
i dont have many friends here but i begged them all to please go vote. none of them did. it feels like people have just given up on society
you'd think as awful as america is doing politically that we'd have some great hiphop and punk music being created but no
everything has been marked for sale. i think america peaked in the 90s, like we crested and were heading for the trough.
i still remember when 9/11 happened when i was in ninth grade. it feels like the timeline split or something... every single day, it gets worse
i will do what i can to protect my family and friends but i think evil won
Yinny
I miss LLC Twitter
Child likes dragging his chip or cracker on my arm what’s that about