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Confession: I am sick of life.

I would never kill myself though cause too many people would go ballistic, but I'm just sick of the loneliness of my current existence. Like the coli is literally the only thing that's keeping me going now add social media and YouTube.

I don't even talk to real people anymore other than like store clerks.

America just feels so fukking hostile. I just feel hate and unfriendly energy anymore. It's to the point I don't leave my apartment unless I have to. Thank god I work at home.

I don't got nobody in my life outside of immediate family anymore.

No girlfriend or wife
No friends.
Just my phone and laptop and all these websites.
My music career is not going anywhere and I just hope it goes somewhere.
:wow:
Or something goes somewhere.
I just feel like life has passed me by and there's nothing I can do.
I just feel so empty.
:wow:

I don't even know what I am even doing with my life anymore. And I've cut off friends from my past cause I hate the person I used to be.

I just lost so much over the past couple years...
I was homeless living in NYC and still suffer from PTSD
Sold the majority of my stuff and got rid of my sneaker collection.
Was fighting a drug addiction that I overcame.
Been fighting clinical depression for the bettwr part of 15 years.

And worst of all, I just feel like a failure. Just feeling small and insignificant and unaccomplished compared to everyone else.

I'm never gonna find love or get married or have kids.
I just buy things to fill the void deal with the isolation and loneliness.
But evwn sneaker collecting feels depressing cause I think of all the kicks I used to have.
:mjcry:

Maybe I should on a vacation to somewhere.
I just need to be around some love and friendly faces.
I'm sick of living in a place where instead of people greeting me with welcome energy, they get scared or hateful and cross the street.

I just wanna feel some genuine love and positive energy. I haven't felt that in a while.
I've been dealing with some shyt too.

Sometimes, you just gotta savor the small victories while you're making moves for bigger ones.

It's really tough though, especially when things start to snowball.

Maybe go to a church or something? That could help a bit judging by the things you mentioned regarding loneliness and energy.
 
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I had a bathroom remodel with my brother in law. We put all the trash on the curb for bull day, and they didn’t take it! I have an old vanity, sink, door, and walls of old tile stuck in front of my house.

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