Let me be blunt. It world irk the fukk out of me to go on MySpace and see all these people back then "living their best life", all stunting, trying to make everybody else feel bad and jealous and shyt, looking for clout especially some of my classmates back in high school. I was never one of the "cool people" even when i tried to be. Never went to the school dances or social events, whatever whatever. End up being seen as the weirdo. I never liked to leave anybody out and always gravitated to the outcast because that's who I was. So that's why I carry on the way I do because I know I'll never "fit in" or "find my tribe".
So now all these years later as an adult where folks are doing that same myspace shyt everywhere online and offline now, I'm literally avoiding people because my instincts is to just give folks a hard time on some real hater shyt. I can't stand that flossing and stunting shyt because folks usually do it to make other people feel bad and to boost themselves up. It's a lack of humility. That's why I don't even be telling folks when something good happens to me if it doesn't directly affect them because I know how it is. Not everybody is happy for you when you're winning and that's real especially if they're not winning. I'm considerate about other peoples feelings or at least that's what I think. I hate when folks can't even keep it a buck about shyt. That's why I don't mind airing myself out. I'm imperfect as can be and not expecting perfect but man.... I've noticed you got folks ego tripping and shyt is annoying as fukk. Like folks is struggling out here and these fukking idiots out here stunting not even reading the room.
A lot of folks are doing better than me and I be holding myself back sometimes from going off on folks just cause folks don't know how good they got it. Yet these folks will be ungrateful as shyt wanting more and whatever. fukk this shyt.
I hate this phone. I really do. I hate having to interact with people. Hate waiting for texts that aren't coming. Hate checking it. fukking hate it. When I turn the phone off, I'm in peace because I know I don't have to worry about anybody calling me or be disappointed, irritated and shyt. I can let it go to voice-mail. Back before the smartphones and social media, nobody didn't know what other people were doing in private. Cloutchasing and stunting was reserved for celebrities, narcissists, and high schoolers. Now shyt changed. If you refuse to participate in that draining shyt, then people think you're a loser. It's like real ain't real anymore for real.
I don't feel like participating in this bullshyt and never have.