I am who I am. I have a good heart, I’m kind and I’m honest. Im green, inexperienced and immature also.
I’ve spent years wanting people to like me so much that I tried to be what I thought they would like and it never worked lol. The closet people I’ve had in my life were the people I was myself with but I’m scared of being hurt and rejected because of it. I get tired of the criticism and the fukk shyt people do to me because they think I’m whatever … but in reality I try really hard lol. I realize I just don’t have it in me to lie or put up the front anymore. If im a 27 year old sheltered nikka who still acts like a kid then that’s what it is tbh. I’m tired of being alone because of these walls I have built for myself. If people gonna dislike me for my ways then I didn’t need them anyway. I’m just learning and growing, I don’t wanna grow the wrong way.
I’ve spent years wanting people to like me so much that I tried to be what I thought they would like and it never worked lol. The closet people I’ve had in my life were the people I was myself with but I’m scared of being hurt and rejected because of it. I get tired of the criticism and the fukk shyt people do to me because they think I’m whatever … but in reality I try really hard lol. I realize I just don’t have it in me to lie or put up the front anymore. If im a 27 year old sheltered nikka who still acts like a kid then that’s what it is tbh. I’m tired of being alone because of these walls I have built for myself. If people gonna dislike me for my ways then I didn’t need them anyway. I’m just learning and growing, I don’t wanna grow the wrong way.