Crazy how I can't bring myself to cry in my 30s because I trained myself not to as a teen. Sadly my family and the people around me would shame me for crying. Having to toughen up and act like everything is okay. This shyt fukking sucks. Being alone and in pain emotionally hurts. No drugs, money, material items, traveling can take that shyt away.
I'm gonna try a therapist again this week by contacting them but this shyt is killing me. Been experiencing this for too long. I thought this shyt would breeze over as an adult back when I was 14, 13 and younger but this shyt is still here.