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[360dagod]

So.. I went to WebMD and I think I may have depression
Is their anything I can do to fix it or keep it under control? I have these symptoms *In Bolded*

Mood: anxiety, apathy, general discontent, guilt, hopelessness, loss of interest, loss of interest or pleasure in activities, mood swings, or sadness
Sleep: early awakening, excess sleepiness, insomnia, or restless sleep
Whole body: excessive hunger, fatigue, loss of appetite, or restlessness
Behavioral: agitation, excessive crying, irritability, or social isolation
Cognitive: lack of concentration, slowness in activity, or thoughts of suicide
Weight: weight gain or weight loss
Also common: poor appetite or repeatedly going over thoughts

I've been feeling down lately and recently had some suppressed memories come up in the last few weeks that have made me feel like I really have no purpose in life tbh because I dont contribute anything worthwhile to anyone and alot of the people that I loved have either died or did me dirty in some way.
The bolded in black is what happens sometimes (2-5 times every two week)
Bolded in red is more common (3-5 times a week)
And bolded in Orange is almost every other day

Ive spoken with my mom and a good friend about this and they both think im just over reacting but idk tbh I dont feel like id be missed that much if I was gone.
And it doesnt help that I cant express my feelings to those closest to me *Except my mom* because if I do they'll just say im over reacting
Its basically either act happy/fun or no one wants to be around u in my case

What are your hobbies?

 

[MMA]

You know you are getting old when your stressed about something so you decide to cut your grass

 

[MMA]

So.. I went to WebMD and I think I may have depression
Is their anything I can do to fix it or keep it under control? I have these symptoms *In Bolded*

Mood: anxiety, apathy, general discontent, guilt, hopelessness, loss of interest, loss of interest or pleasure in activities, mood swings, or sadness
Sleep: early awakening, excess sleepiness, insomnia, or restless sleep
Whole body: excessive hunger, fatigue, loss of appetite, or restlessness
Behavioral: agitation, excessive crying, irritability, or social isolation
Cognitive: lack of concentration, slowness in activity, or thoughts of suicide
Weight: weight gain or weight loss
Also common: poor appetite or repeatedly going over thoughts

I've been feeling down lately and recently had some suppressed memories come up in the last few weeks that have made me feel like I really have no purpose in life tbh because I dont contribute anything worthwhile to anyone and alot of the people that I loved have either died or did me dirty in some way.
The bolded in black is what happens sometimes (2-5 times every two week)
Bolded in red is more common (3-5 times a week)
And bolded in Orange is almost every other day

Ive spoken with my mom and a good friend about this and they both think im just over reacting but idk tbh I dont feel like id be missed that much if I was gone.
And it doesnt help that I cant express my feelings to those closest to me *Except my mom* because if I do they'll just say im over reacting
Its basically either act happy/fun or no one wants to be around u in my case

You sound like the average young woman to me Don't even mean it has a diss but the pscyhological warfare woman go through growing up is bound to leave large imprints on them. I see this on a weekly basis with young adults getting ready for the real world
Anxiety, guilt, social isolation etc - sounds like someone who isn't where they want to be in life.
All of those things sound like maybe an identity issue, you need to learn to accept yourself?
Find peace in healthy hobbies and focus on good, idk

 

[❤Aԃɾιαɳα Rσȥαყ ❤]

What are your hobbies?

I like to play games and watch movies sometimes. And I like to listen to music sometimes. I like to go to parties too.

 

[360dagod]

I've been given the responsibility of escorting my transsexual coworker to and from the restroom because she doesn't feel comfortable going alone.


I like her and she's cool AF but ummm...I don't even walk my child to the bathroom EVERY time she needs to go.

Every time she has to pee she's all in my alerts and Lord forbid I use the restroom without telling her that I'm going.

This shyt is getting annoying.

 

[❤Aԃɾιαɳα Rσȥαყ ❤]

You sound like the average young woman to me
Anxiety, guilt, social isolation etc - sounds like someone who isn't where they want to be in life.
All of those things sound like maybe an identity issue, you need to learn to accept yourself?
Find peace in healthy hobbies and focus on good, idk

What do u mean by this?

 

[360dagod]

I like to play games and watch movies sometimes. And I like to listen to music sometimes. I like to go to parties too.

Go volunteer somewhere of find something that require social stimulation and meeting of new people...

You need a lifestyle change...

Get rid of the toxic people and put your energy into something that's gonna payoff

 

[MMA]

What do u mean by this?

All of those things point to someone who isn't happy with themselves, so you are internally lashing out

Self acceptance within one self is accepting not just who you are but the flaws that you might have created or someone else did. It's when you no longer allow it to define or control your everyday movement

 

[❤Aԃɾιαɳα Rσȥαყ ❤]

Go volunteer somewhere of find something that require social stimulation and meeting of new people...

You need a lifestyle change...

Get rid of the toxic people and put your energy into something that's gonna payoff

I will do this, because I feel like im stuck in a loop with my life as it is. I mean nothing is wrong with it, but I just need a more positive change I feel like im in that movie where that guy wakes up and its the same day everyday, only except its constantly bad news or something to mess up my mood

 

[❤Aԃɾιαɳα Rσȥαყ ❤]

All of those things point to someone who isn't happy with themselves, so you are internally lashing out

Self acceptance within one self is accepting not just who you are but the flaws that you might have created or someone else did. It's when you no longer allow it to define or control your everyday movement

I was abused when I was younger and I recently had repressed memories about it come back. Is this maybe the source of it?? I had counseling when I was younger from 8/9-15 to help with it, but certain things can help 'trigger' the memories and trauma associated with certain things.

 

[MMA]

I was abused when I was younger and I recently had repressed memories about it come back. Is this maybe the source of it?? I had counseling when I was younger from 8/9-15 to help with it, but certain things can help 'trigger' the memories and trauma associated with certain things.

Yup, could be a large portion of it.

 

[❤Aԃɾιαɳα Rσȥαყ ❤]

Yup, could be a large portion of it.

I just feel like im destined to have a fukked up life because I always get hit with the 'worst' of a situation when something goes wrong.
Friends get in toruble? Guess who gets suspended/blamed
I had fun with a good friend? Guess who just died/got killed
I anticipated something being good/fun? Guess what sucked

Its like literally nothing ever goes my way everything I say goes out one ear or the other to ppl, I feel like a real life background character tbh

 

[360dagod]

I will do this, because I feel like im stuck in a loop with my life as it is. I mean nothing is wrong with it, but I just need a more positive change I feel like im in that movie where that guy wakes up and its the same day everyday, only except its constantly bad news or something to mess up my mood

Something is wrong with your life..

Admit it

Embrace it

Change it

 

[Neuromancer]

some chicks you can look at and tell their p*ssy stinks.

 

[Sonic Boom of the South]

I hate alcoholic bytches who act like they ain't alcoholic