Message to the youth,dont ever think suicide is the answer. At least give it until your 50 or 60. Because i can promise you from 15-20,to 20-30,to 30-40 can be completely different eras for you. If your actively trying to better yourself,its almost impossible to not have a nice run in there somewhere. Hopefully you can build on that run. If not,enjoy the memories and hope another run happens. Its actually alot like the music business,many artist become filled with bitterness behind being a one hit wonder. But some of us will be granted one hit,some will have sporadic hits,some will have longevity from start to finish. Understand your lane and talent level and move accordingly. Some of you will need money aka a "machine" to find success/happiness like industry plants. Some of you will need antics to gain the attention and success you seek